Don't Smile America

So I am in Stockholm Sweden, we have been here for 2 day's so far, we leave tomorrow (Monday) and I have really enjoyed this city, I hope someday I come back. Stockholm has been such a stylish city, and I don't mean just fashion wise, everything!

Last night My Guy and I left the hotel kind of on the late side to eat dinner so we didn't have much restaurants to pick from because most of them were closing, we found a place that was still opened and walked in. We ordered our food, the food was fine, we had some wine, its was okay (I have realized I am kind of a wine snob after learning that the wine is different....in Sweden so far) anyways after our meal we just continue to enjoy our wine and sit back and relax. This large group of people came into the restaurant and we notice that they could use an extra chair, My Guy offered the extra chair we had at our table they said thank you and one of the guy's said something sexist in a "funny" way. I ask My Guy if the group of people are German and he said he didn't know so he turned to ask they said yes that most were, some were from Belgium, he said to them congratulations on beating Russia in the hockey game (world hockey is playing right now)they didn't know but were happy to find out. Then this is what things turn from fine to bad......they asked were we were from.........let me let you know that there was maybe 7 guy's and 1 female.....okay so My Guy say's he is from Slovakia but lives in California and I am from California. They all smiled and then one of the guy's asks me where in California and I said San Francisco, I noticed that all the guy's were looking at me as if I was some alien it was VERY creepy, My Guy said later on he didn't notice all them only one looking at me. This one guy was very aggressive I guess you could say and he was interested in talking with me more then My Guy, at one point My Guy went to the bathroom and the aggressive guy gave me a card with his full name and info on the back and said I should contact him because he works in the wine business then he asked me if I was on Facebook, I hesitated and they all started to laugh, mind you this guy mentioned that he was married! My Guy came back from the bathroom, perfect timing, I wanted to get the fuck out of there!!! When we were leaving he said to me "good bye, I hope we can stay in touch" My Guy didn't really think anything of it until we got back to the hotel and I pulled out his card he gave me to trow it away. My Guy was pissed and said that guy was a creep-o.

The reason why I have tittled this don't smile America is because My Guy has told me in the past that American's smile too much and come off as naive and too nice. At the time I brushed it off but now I see what he means, I also think Paris Hilton and Britney Spears didn't help in making American girls/women look any better. My Guy was saying that when you smile too much it can give off the wrong message. European's don't really smile. Okay, that's fine, but it really creeped me out to think that just my smile and being nice could have been some sign that I was "loose". I felt sick to my stomach when we got back to the hotel and I felt uneasy the next day (today), I don't want to know what those guy's were thinking...........okay that is kind of a lie I would like to know!!

I really hope that this is the only bad experience I have on my trip to Europe!

4 Day's Left!

I'm leaving for Europe in 4 day's and I have a bunch of mixed feelings, but one feeling keeps coming up more then the others.....I can't wait to get the fuck out of this city!! I am so over the people and well....San Fransisco, I need a new change of everything I guess. This will be the longest I have ever been away from home and I will be interested on how I will deal, I'm sure I'm going to be just fine.

I might have a job when I get back San Francisco, a family member put in a good word for me and some arrangements were made, but I don't really believe it until I see something in writing!

I can't get over how things have come together in my life, maybe not all in the order that I dreamed about but here they are! An amazing boyfriend, I finished school, a trip to Europe and now maybe a job that would be a wonderful experience! I know how lucky I am and I tell myself almost everyday this and there was a time where I didn't see any of this happening in my life, but if it wasn't for My Guy and my family non of theses things would have happened for me. I will forever be grateful to you guys, truly and thank you!

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Worst weekend ever!

I have realized that I really don't like to go out on Friday nights, I like to be home sitting on my couch or bed watching a movie and going to bed at a decent hour so I can wake up at like 8:30-9am and have a wonderful Saturday!

I also dont like the feeling knowing that if I didnt show up at a bar, club, house party, whatever it really wouldn't have mattered, even though you were begged and had a gun put to your head to show up..............your time was waisted and you felt used! I hate to waist people's time, and rarely ever will I use someone, I feel very strongly about Karma! I was thinking about friendships in SF, looking at my past....lets just say I have shoes that are older.

I was asked last night by MyGuy if I missed anything about being single and I told him that I missed being able to wake up in the morning and just go, like not having to tell anyone what your going to do for the weekend, you are able to just get up and go. I also wanted to add, drama. I HATE drama, and thats what I felt this weekend was all about, being single, the only drama you have is with yourself and you can stop that as fast as you started; but not when your seeing someone. I love MyGuy very much and I dont often think about being single, I only think about it when times get tough because I really can't handle drama with people it is VERY overwhelming for me, my brain feels like it's going to explode. I would have to say that's when I crave being by myself the most and the power to snap my fingers and be away from that person.

All I want I feel are simple things, be there for me like I am for you, be a true friend, dont put drama in my life because I will go out of my way to not put it in yours, know that sometimes I want to be left alone and not take it personally.

I'm pissed, heartbroken, drained, let down and overwhelmed.

"I don't want to be alone, I want to be left alone"
Audrey Hepburn

Lady G gave me goose bumps

My friend, myself and My Guy all went to the Lady Gaga concert last night! I have to say that I'm really glad that my friend came because it was so nice to have someone to sing and dance along with.....I miss the day's we used to get down and funky while waiting at bus stops!!!

Lady Gaga's performance was awesome, I liked that she took some time to talk with her fan's, she did get cheesy at times, but it was okay. She gave me goose bumps at one point when she went on a "born this way" speech. I know this is about being gay and be proud of it, but what about being blind,handicap,black, having red hair, being dyslexic? Does that apply? Knowing Gaga, I would assume she would agree. It's really hard sometimes to love yourself for what you are, and yes I was born dyslexic and this is who I am, her speech made me think if the gay's need to except who they are so should I!

Thanks Gaga!

Take me

Rambling list

I really miss my Sunday's - laundry, grocery shopping, cleaning, hanging out with my Mom.

If your going to Europe soon don't watch the movie Taken, because all I can think about is being taken and never seen again and i'll have to fuck nasty ass fat fucks and I know I will get the worst vaginal infection I could ever think of, among other things!

I don't like that I'm only 27 and I already have hemorrhoids and gray hair, like come on!!! The gray hair....could we just wait till i'm 30? And the hemorrhoids....age 40?


I wish I could meet someone who never said anything about my body.

I wonder do people question if they feel they are a good friend/sibling/spouse/boyfriend, girlfriend? I have been thinking this lately.

I need some sun on my bones.

I joined the YMCA and I'm hoping to turn this bag of bones of a body into something cool.


I would like to get stoned and then dance.

Knocked it out of the park!

I am in love with almost every piece in this RTW (ready to wear) fall 11/12 Chanel collection!!!



WOW!!!!

It's like saying you like cucumbers but you don't like pickles

I remember when I decided that I did not like Prada, her style does not appeal to me at all what so ever, but a few months back I found out that Miu Miu's creater is Miuccia Prada, who is Prada....have I confused you? I have seen a few Miu Miu show's on youtube and have been pleased but not blown away until now! And I kind of feel like it's that feeling that you know that pickles come from cumbers, but you prefer cucumbers over pickles anyways because of the look and taste. I guess that apply's to Miu Miu vs Prada.

These are a few of my favorite from the Miu Miu Fall 2011 collection and I also added the video of the show. I like the collection tords the end,the music also picks up a bit more, and I love the shoes from start to finish....glitter....YES PLEASE!!!

Heels

Last Friday I was feeling kind of sad and the sad me wanted to stay in bed and hide from the world but the other side told me that I needed to get my ass to Walgreen's so I got my ass up and out of the house. I would say I am a somewhat snazzy dresser, I like to go out of my way to look nice/stylish a young lady in her late 20's, so I thought I would put on some heels.....I know, just a 5 block walk to Walgreen's but come on, I was looking for a "lets try to feel hot". I put on these clogs that have a slight heel to them, I was happy with my outfit, but when I left the house and as I was walking I started to feel stupid and I don't think I have ever felt stupid when I have worn heels in the past, if anything they have made me feel powerful! Maybe it could have been from my mood but I do make fun of the girls who wear heels to school, have you been to CCSF, it is a VERY hilly school, your heel's could easily pop off!!

I have A LOT of heels and I wish I could wear them more often but San Francisco I would say is a not a heel friendly city, I'm more of a flat boot girl, I need to know that I can get around with my feet!

I think it was just my mood.