I spoke with my counselor yesterday because about 2 weeks ago my math teacher said that he talked with my counselor and something is in the works.....whatever that means, the soonest appointment I could get with my counselor was after spring break.
So I asked him what was going on and he said that he spoke with my math teacher and he said that a waver is not possible but an alternative class is......ugh!
Sure an alternative is better than having to take this math class for the 5th time!! But a waver would have been awesome, something is ALWAYS better than nothing but I'm really down to the wire in my life and I have been in school for about 7 to 8 years now, I should be a doctor by now!! My counselor said he would let me know sometime next week (I hope) on what class will I have to take, I'm really hoping its something I can do, un-like this math class!!
I feel school keeps cutting off my dreams, and I have been playing by the rules of life for too long, when do I get to make my dreams come alive? If I find out next week what this alternative class is and its something I know I cant do then I'm going to drop out; maybe I'll regret it but maybe I'll be happy!
Friday, April 16, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
What I'm spose to have before I turn 30?
I got this from The Frisky.com
1. Clothes that fit the size she is now, not the size she was five years ago (duh)
2. A weekly income that covers the rent (or mortgage payment) (some day..soon!)
3. An orgasm (ummmm)
4. Always enough toilet paper (I'm not a dude!!)
5. A hair stylist she trusts (YES, and I LOVE her!!)
6. A favorite song, porn site, image, movie or fantasy that always gets her in the mood (get real!)
7. Health insurance (Check)
8. A signature drink (cheep beer and white wine?)
9. A healthy relationship with her parents (%99.9 yes)
10. Bras in the correct size (I have no boob's really for a bra but yes I wear my correct size)
11. Enough alcohol in her home to offer drop-by guests a cocktail (someday)
12. An emergency hangover remedy (sleep!)
13. A voter registration card (no, but I do vote)
14. A wardrobe that includes the perfectly flattering little black dress, a great pair of heels, jeans that make her ass look great, and a cute hat that hides a bad hair day (I don't have that "little black dress" I have plenty of great heels and I only wear jeans that make my ass look good, duh!)
15. A yearly appointment with her gynecologist (YES)
16. The name of reliable movers to give her friends when they ask for help relocating (um your on your own)
17. The gumption to ask a man out ( I have done it, dont really like to, but I have done it)
18. A group of girlfriends who get it ( I have one...)
19. A set of tools (and the ability to use them ... even if it’s just to hang a piece of art) (Oh please, just call a handy man and hope he's hot!)
20. A balanced checkbook (ummmm)
21. No interest in men who just aren’t that into her (I had to learn the hard way....and it payed off!!)
22. A vacation to look forward to at least once a year (umm sure)
23. A good bulls**t detector (what?)
24. The courage to stand up for herself and her beliefs (FUCK YEAH I DO)
25. A favorite sex position (Can you have more then one?)
26. A set of hand towels so guests don’t have dry their hands on her bath towel (gross!) (someday, I mean duh I cant stand it when people want me to wash on there towel that they dry there body off from!!)
27. Enough self-love to avoid and break off unhealthy friendships and relationships (Check)
28. A commitment to exercise (I wish my commitment was stronger, but I do have one)
29. A retirement fund (ummm)
30. A great vibrator (egh)
Most of these things are "get real" and some are "yes, duh", I think the men's one is more practical!
1. Clothes that fit the size she is now, not the size she was five years ago (duh)
2. A weekly income that covers the rent (or mortgage payment) (some day..soon!)
3. An orgasm (ummmm)
4. Always enough toilet paper (I'm not a dude!!)
5. A hair stylist she trusts (YES, and I LOVE her!!)
6. A favorite song, porn site, image, movie or fantasy that always gets her in the mood (get real!)
7. Health insurance (Check)
8. A signature drink (cheep beer and white wine?)
9. A healthy relationship with her parents (%99.9 yes)
10. Bras in the correct size (I have no boob's really for a bra but yes I wear my correct size)
11. Enough alcohol in her home to offer drop-by guests a cocktail (someday)
12. An emergency hangover remedy (sleep!)
13. A voter registration card (no, but I do vote)
14. A wardrobe that includes the perfectly flattering little black dress, a great pair of heels, jeans that make her ass look great, and a cute hat that hides a bad hair day (I don't have that "little black dress" I have plenty of great heels and I only wear jeans that make my ass look good, duh!)
15. A yearly appointment with her gynecologist (YES)
16. The name of reliable movers to give her friends when they ask for help relocating (um your on your own)
17. The gumption to ask a man out ( I have done it, dont really like to, but I have done it)
18. A group of girlfriends who get it ( I have one...)
19. A set of tools (and the ability to use them ... even if it’s just to hang a piece of art) (Oh please, just call a handy man and hope he's hot!)
20. A balanced checkbook (ummmm)
21. No interest in men who just aren’t that into her (I had to learn the hard way....and it payed off!!)
22. A vacation to look forward to at least once a year (umm sure)
23. A good bulls**t detector (what?)
24. The courage to stand up for herself and her beliefs (FUCK YEAH I DO)
25. A favorite sex position (Can you have more then one?)
26. A set of hand towels so guests don’t have dry their hands on her bath towel (gross!) (someday, I mean duh I cant stand it when people want me to wash on there towel that they dry there body off from!!)
27. Enough self-love to avoid and break off unhealthy friendships and relationships (Check)
28. A commitment to exercise (I wish my commitment was stronger, but I do have one)
29. A retirement fund (ummm)
30. A great vibrator (egh)
Most of these things are "get real" and some are "yes, duh", I think the men's one is more practical!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I'm not cut out for this world
Today I got my first "citation" driving ticket. I knew the day was going to come and I knew I was going to cry, and I did! I didn't cry to try to make the cop feel sorry, I cried because I did something wrong and I cant stand to do anything wrong, most of my life has been "WONG,your doing that wrong, your saying that wrong, your spelling that wrong, WRONG"!!! I really cant handle it, I would much rather you beat me with a stick, really, just come over to me and beat me with a stick then telling me that I'm wrong. It's not that I have to be perfect or right at everything I do, I just want to do good and I try to achieve that everyday....... well almost everyday.
When I was taking care of my baby cousin today I was thinking why I was still all upset about this and then I figured it out, and then I thought about how I'm going to deal when I'm done with school and get a real job, someone at some point is going to tell me I'm doing something wrong and it's not going to be okay to cry!!!
I really do feel sometimes that maybe I'm not cut out for this world, I really do. Life just gets really overwhelming sometimes for me and I don't handle it like an adult, I act like a child and its not okay with me!
When I was taking care of my baby cousin today I was thinking why I was still all upset about this and then I figured it out, and then I thought about how I'm going to deal when I'm done with school and get a real job, someone at some point is going to tell me I'm doing something wrong and it's not going to be okay to cry!!!
I really do feel sometimes that maybe I'm not cut out for this world, I really do. Life just gets really overwhelming sometimes for me and I don't handle it like an adult, I act like a child and its not okay with me!
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