I seem to have messed things up with Surfer Guy, the questions going back and forth are: was this going to happen anyways? was is really all my fault? is he a jerk for not trying to understand me? am I not ready for a relationship? do I pick the wrong guys?
I'm so sad, I really liked him, the sex was like no other (i really do mean it, it was mind blowing) he was really hot, we had all this music and movies stuff incomin, but he kind of raised his voice to me today and, being that we have only known each other for a week and a day, that's not a good sign. When your starting to date someone it should be all hearts and flowers. But like I said I think I messed it up, it was all hearts and flowers until Sunday, when I opened my mouth and things just kind of came out without thinking, I freaked out, I needed answers, I didnt want to get caught up in a fuck buddy deal again and I needed to make sure that this is not it. My guy friend said, I'll move on in a week, there will be some other guy..........hugh, I wanted this guy!!! Everyone says I wont find a man because I'm looking, I DONT CARE IF THEY ARE RIGHT!!!!!! I'll be 26 in August, and that might be young to some......not that I think its an old age its just, its in your late 20's now and I feel I should be in a relationship, among other things. It would really help if I got a nice slap over the head right now of some tough love!! I want to know, am I ready?
