Woe is me....

Something doesn’t feel right in the air and I’m a little scared about what the outcome is going to be like. The worry side says “it’s going to be really bad”, it also says “maybe its done already” and then my calm side says “this is just a phase, you can’t ride the high horse forever”. What would I be losing? I think that’s what I’m scared of…….it’s so easy to forget that I could get it all back again…….it would take a little while and maybe the replacement would be even better? My heart is very lonely and my ego is very fragile, I don’t remember the last time I felt awesome, or appreciated.