Every weekend is spent with My Guy, from the day I met him, EVERY WEEKEND has been spent with him! Yesterday (Sunday) when we got up in the morning we needed to head over to my house because the dog I take care of was being dropped off. My Guy hung around the rest of the day (I didn't mind at all)we walked the dog, looked at 2 places for him in the neighborhood and he had dinner with my parents.
As I was getting ready for bed my Mom came into my room to say good night to the dog and I guess chat with me for a bit, she asked me if I think I spend too much time with My Guy and I said yes. She said to me I have been single for so long and then My Guy comes along and the 2 of you have been joined by the hip, I agreed with her, I really do love my alone time, and as of lately I can't wait for the work week to come because I get to sleep in my own bed and all of my stuff is here. She said did I ever worry that this might stop, like My Guy one day he doesn't want to see me as much as he does right now and I told her no, I worry that I'm going to feel that way. If it was up to My Guy I would be moving in with him when he finds his new place, and I have already nipped that in the bud by saying "I need to be with you for a year and then let's talk about moving in with each other".
My Mom got me thinking, I had a hard time sleeping last night........also having a dog waking you up at 5 in the morning didn't help ether!
I love My Guy very much, I know he is the best guy I have ever met and probably is going to be the best guy I will EVER meet.....I'm going to try to hang on to this guy for as long as I can! But I do feel I need a week and a weekend to myself, I know pitching this idea to him is going to be nails on a chalk board but I need to say something or I know at some point I'm going to crack; I also feel this might be the perfect timing too. See I'm taking care of a dog, and that means he is my responsibility, so sleeping over would mean I would not be doing my job, also in about a week and a half we are going on a vacation and we will be together for a week! I think I get to have this time, I feel this will be good for us. We will still talk on the phone and see each other I'm just not going to sleep over, yes I like this idea very much :)
SPACE, I NEED SOME SPACE!!!!
Monday, June 7, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
Robyn is back!!
Robyn 'Dancing On My Own' (Official Video) from Robyn on Vimeo.
I can't wait till the album comes out!! I missed your Robyn!!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Some skin and health tips!
I have been seeing this women Kim who started her own company called Skin Salvation, its an acne clinic. I have never had bad acne but I for sure would/still get breakouts and at 26 enough was enough! She has taught me so much and I feel the need to share a few tips that I have learned along the way!
- Dairy is actually one of the number one reasons why you breakout! Stop eating it or eat it once in a blue moon you will find a big change in your skin!
- Using non scented liquid laundry detergent is better then scented, scented leaves kind of a waxy build up on your cloths and on your skin and that can clog pores! It also helps if you can try to sleep on a clean pillow case every night. I sleep on one side and then flip it over the next night and then put a new one on.
- ICE CUBE, no not the rapper...haha! If you take an ice cube and put it in a washcloth to hold it and rub it on your inflammation for 2 minutes 2X a day you will notice an incredible change! The ice REALLY WORKS people!! You dont have to rub it just on the inflammation you can also rub it all over the face. The swelling and the redness goes down fast!
- Using a good face wash and other good for you skin products is key. Kim has me on her personal face wash but she has gotten me and My Guy hooked to this brand called DermaE I LOVE LOVE their body lotion, I use the pink grapefruit and it smells A-MAZ-ING!
Also SPF people I know I talked about one that I really liked in a previous blog but Kim introduced me to this new brand and this one is way better! The brand is called COOLA My Guy I got him the sport one and he loves it, I have the one just for your face its really nice!
- Make-up. It took me a while to grow to love powder foundation but knowing that its better for my skin and with all the money and dedication I put into my skin I owe it to my face! Kim introduced me to Color Science this brand has no junk in it and I like that if I go on a little vacation or spend the night at My Guy's place I dont need to be worried if its going to leak unlike when I use to use liquid foundation.
It's also REALLY REALLY REALLY IMPORTANT to wash your make-up brushes once a week or for sure once a month!!
I guess my health tips would only be related to the vagina being that has been really the only "health" thing I have had to deal with. Trying to keep your sugar intake low as possible is really good, staying away from bread or buy yeast free bread (you get used to the taste) and taking a yest control probiotics 3 times a day has really helped me. Also staying away anything fermented is a good idea too.
- Dairy is actually one of the number one reasons why you breakout! Stop eating it or eat it once in a blue moon you will find a big change in your skin!
- Using non scented liquid laundry detergent is better then scented, scented leaves kind of a waxy build up on your cloths and on your skin and that can clog pores! It also helps if you can try to sleep on a clean pillow case every night. I sleep on one side and then flip it over the next night and then put a new one on.
- ICE CUBE, no not the rapper...haha! If you take an ice cube and put it in a washcloth to hold it and rub it on your inflammation for 2 minutes 2X a day you will notice an incredible change! The ice REALLY WORKS people!! You dont have to rub it just on the inflammation you can also rub it all over the face. The swelling and the redness goes down fast!
- Using a good face wash and other good for you skin products is key. Kim has me on her personal face wash but she has gotten me and My Guy hooked to this brand called DermaE I LOVE LOVE their body lotion, I use the pink grapefruit and it smells A-MAZ-ING!
Also SPF people I know I talked about one that I really liked in a previous blog but Kim introduced me to this new brand and this one is way better! The brand is called COOLA My Guy I got him the sport one and he loves it, I have the one just for your face its really nice!
- Make-up. It took me a while to grow to love powder foundation but knowing that its better for my skin and with all the money and dedication I put into my skin I owe it to my face! Kim introduced me to Color Science this brand has no junk in it and I like that if I go on a little vacation or spend the night at My Guy's place I dont need to be worried if its going to leak unlike when I use to use liquid foundation.
It's also REALLY REALLY REALLY IMPORTANT to wash your make-up brushes once a week or for sure once a month!!
I guess my health tips would only be related to the vagina being that has been really the only "health" thing I have had to deal with. Trying to keep your sugar intake low as possible is really good, staying away from bread or buy yeast free bread (you get used to the taste) and taking a yest control probiotics 3 times a day has really helped me. Also staying away anything fermented is a good idea too.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Two peas in a pod!
My Guy and I have been like two pea's in a pod, he met the parents on Easter and they LOVE him, he met my Ant about 2 weeks ago and she Love's him, my friends like him, and he is a dream come true. And its even more great that he likes my family and friends!!
Everything has been going so well, in the beginning it was a little shaky (I talked about that) but now when I go to sleep at night in my bed I wish he was in the bed with me. His heart is so full, the way he touches me and the way he is attentive to me, sometimes I feel this guy is a dream!
I told myself I wouldn't settle for just some guy who liked me just enough, I also wasn't going to put up with a guy who isn't domesticated! I wanted a guy who needed me like a drug, I dont care how narcissistic that sounds but when I'm with someome they need to want to want me, need me, because then I'll start looking some place else. My Guy fits the bill to a T!!
We talk about the future sometimes and about life and I really like that we have the same views and ideas, it really means a lot. I really hope this lasts because I'm not sure if I would ever want to open my heart again to anybody.
Everything has been going so well, in the beginning it was a little shaky (I talked about that) but now when I go to sleep at night in my bed I wish he was in the bed with me. His heart is so full, the way he touches me and the way he is attentive to me, sometimes I feel this guy is a dream!
I told myself I wouldn't settle for just some guy who liked me just enough, I also wasn't going to put up with a guy who isn't domesticated! I wanted a guy who needed me like a drug, I dont care how narcissistic that sounds but when I'm with someome they need to want to want me, need me, because then I'll start looking some place else. My Guy fits the bill to a T!!
We talk about the future sometimes and about life and I really like that we have the same views and ideas, it really means a lot. I really hope this lasts because I'm not sure if I would ever want to open my heart again to anybody.
Friday, April 16, 2010
I think I'm never going to get out of school!!
I spoke with my counselor yesterday because about 2 weeks ago my math teacher said that he talked with my counselor and something is in the works.....whatever that means, the soonest appointment I could get with my counselor was after spring break.
So I asked him what was going on and he said that he spoke with my math teacher and he said that a waver is not possible but an alternative class is......ugh!
Sure an alternative is better than having to take this math class for the 5th time!! But a waver would have been awesome, something is ALWAYS better than nothing but I'm really down to the wire in my life and I have been in school for about 7 to 8 years now, I should be a doctor by now!! My counselor said he would let me know sometime next week (I hope) on what class will I have to take, I'm really hoping its something I can do, un-like this math class!!
I feel school keeps cutting off my dreams, and I have been playing by the rules of life for too long, when do I get to make my dreams come alive? If I find out next week what this alternative class is and its something I know I cant do then I'm going to drop out; maybe I'll regret it but maybe I'll be happy!
So I asked him what was going on and he said that he spoke with my math teacher and he said that a waver is not possible but an alternative class is......ugh!
Sure an alternative is better than having to take this math class for the 5th time!! But a waver would have been awesome, something is ALWAYS better than nothing but I'm really down to the wire in my life and I have been in school for about 7 to 8 years now, I should be a doctor by now!! My counselor said he would let me know sometime next week (I hope) on what class will I have to take, I'm really hoping its something I can do, un-like this math class!!
I feel school keeps cutting off my dreams, and I have been playing by the rules of life for too long, when do I get to make my dreams come alive? If I find out next week what this alternative class is and its something I know I cant do then I'm going to drop out; maybe I'll regret it but maybe I'll be happy!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
What I'm spose to have before I turn 30?
I got this from The Frisky.com
1. Clothes that fit the size she is now, not the size she was five years ago (duh)
2. A weekly income that covers the rent (or mortgage payment) (some day..soon!)
3. An orgasm (ummmm)
4. Always enough toilet paper (I'm not a dude!!)
5. A hair stylist she trusts (YES, and I LOVE her!!)
6. A favorite song, porn site, image, movie or fantasy that always gets her in the mood (get real!)
7. Health insurance (Check)
8. A signature drink (cheep beer and white wine?)
9. A healthy relationship with her parents (%99.9 yes)
10. Bras in the correct size (I have no boob's really for a bra but yes I wear my correct size)
11. Enough alcohol in her home to offer drop-by guests a cocktail (someday)
12. An emergency hangover remedy (sleep!)
13. A voter registration card (no, but I do vote)
14. A wardrobe that includes the perfectly flattering little black dress, a great pair of heels, jeans that make her ass look great, and a cute hat that hides a bad hair day (I don't have that "little black dress" I have plenty of great heels and I only wear jeans that make my ass look good, duh!)
15. A yearly appointment with her gynecologist (YES)
16. The name of reliable movers to give her friends when they ask for help relocating (um your on your own)
17. The gumption to ask a man out ( I have done it, dont really like to, but I have done it)
18. A group of girlfriends who get it ( I have one...)
19. A set of tools (and the ability to use them ... even if it’s just to hang a piece of art) (Oh please, just call a handy man and hope he's hot!)
20. A balanced checkbook (ummmm)
21. No interest in men who just aren’t that into her (I had to learn the hard way....and it payed off!!)
22. A vacation to look forward to at least once a year (umm sure)
23. A good bulls**t detector (what?)
24. The courage to stand up for herself and her beliefs (FUCK YEAH I DO)
25. A favorite sex position (Can you have more then one?)
26. A set of hand towels so guests don’t have dry their hands on her bath towel (gross!) (someday, I mean duh I cant stand it when people want me to wash on there towel that they dry there body off from!!)
27. Enough self-love to avoid and break off unhealthy friendships and relationships (Check)
28. A commitment to exercise (I wish my commitment was stronger, but I do have one)
29. A retirement fund (ummm)
30. A great vibrator (egh)
Most of these things are "get real" and some are "yes, duh", I think the men's one is more practical!
1. Clothes that fit the size she is now, not the size she was five years ago (duh)
2. A weekly income that covers the rent (or mortgage payment) (some day..soon!)
3. An orgasm (ummmm)
4. Always enough toilet paper (I'm not a dude!!)
5. A hair stylist she trusts (YES, and I LOVE her!!)
6. A favorite song, porn site, image, movie or fantasy that always gets her in the mood (get real!)
7. Health insurance (Check)
8. A signature drink (cheep beer and white wine?)
9. A healthy relationship with her parents (%99.9 yes)
10. Bras in the correct size (I have no boob's really for a bra but yes I wear my correct size)
11. Enough alcohol in her home to offer drop-by guests a cocktail (someday)
12. An emergency hangover remedy (sleep!)
13. A voter registration card (no, but I do vote)
14. A wardrobe that includes the perfectly flattering little black dress, a great pair of heels, jeans that make her ass look great, and a cute hat that hides a bad hair day (I don't have that "little black dress" I have plenty of great heels and I only wear jeans that make my ass look good, duh!)
15. A yearly appointment with her gynecologist (YES)
16. The name of reliable movers to give her friends when they ask for help relocating (um your on your own)
17. The gumption to ask a man out ( I have done it, dont really like to, but I have done it)
18. A group of girlfriends who get it ( I have one...)
19. A set of tools (and the ability to use them ... even if it’s just to hang a piece of art) (Oh please, just call a handy man and hope he's hot!)
20. A balanced checkbook (ummmm)
21. No interest in men who just aren’t that into her (I had to learn the hard way....and it payed off!!)
22. A vacation to look forward to at least once a year (umm sure)
23. A good bulls**t detector (what?)
24. The courage to stand up for herself and her beliefs (FUCK YEAH I DO)
25. A favorite sex position (Can you have more then one?)
26. A set of hand towels so guests don’t have dry their hands on her bath towel (gross!) (someday, I mean duh I cant stand it when people want me to wash on there towel that they dry there body off from!!)
27. Enough self-love to avoid and break off unhealthy friendships and relationships (Check)
28. A commitment to exercise (I wish my commitment was stronger, but I do have one)
29. A retirement fund (ummm)
30. A great vibrator (egh)
Most of these things are "get real" and some are "yes, duh", I think the men's one is more practical!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I'm not cut out for this world
Today I got my first "citation" driving ticket. I knew the day was going to come and I knew I was going to cry, and I did! I didn't cry to try to make the cop feel sorry, I cried because I did something wrong and I cant stand to do anything wrong, most of my life has been "WONG,your doing that wrong, your saying that wrong, your spelling that wrong, WRONG"!!! I really cant handle it, I would much rather you beat me with a stick, really, just come over to me and beat me with a stick then telling me that I'm wrong. It's not that I have to be perfect or right at everything I do, I just want to do good and I try to achieve that everyday....... well almost everyday.
When I was taking care of my baby cousin today I was thinking why I was still all upset about this and then I figured it out, and then I thought about how I'm going to deal when I'm done with school and get a real job, someone at some point is going to tell me I'm doing something wrong and it's not going to be okay to cry!!!
I really do feel sometimes that maybe I'm not cut out for this world, I really do. Life just gets really overwhelming sometimes for me and I don't handle it like an adult, I act like a child and its not okay with me!
When I was taking care of my baby cousin today I was thinking why I was still all upset about this and then I figured it out, and then I thought about how I'm going to deal when I'm done with school and get a real job, someone at some point is going to tell me I'm doing something wrong and it's not going to be okay to cry!!!
I really do feel sometimes that maybe I'm not cut out for this world, I really do. Life just gets really overwhelming sometimes for me and I don't handle it like an adult, I act like a child and its not okay with me!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Your brain is fasinating......really because I dont think it is!
When I told My Guy one day that I was dyslexic he didn't know much about it.......like the rest of the world! I told him I really struggle in school particularly in math and in a way in life too, he mentioned that he wanted to know more about dyslexia but I just thought he said that to be nice and sound interested....wrong! The dude ordered a book called something along the lines of "The gift of dyslexia" and has been reading it now for about 2 weeks? Over the weekend I wanted to check out the stores on Height St. to see if they had anything better than what down town had to offer (no such luck...what is going on people, why am I not finding anything i like...I need some new tops, hello!!!) and he wanted to come along......because he wanted to be with his honey bee :) Barf....anyways he brought his book with him and when i would look at cloths he would read his book, at one point I passed by him and he said "T your brain is fascinating" I gave him a little smirk and said to him "Really? I find it to be annoying!"
No guy that I have ever dated, and not even my ex that I was with for about two years was interested in my learning disability like how My Guy is, its a little freaky but sweet at the same time. I will say this though, he loves math and I like that a lot!!!He also is trying to "brain wash" me a little bit in getting into the arts for a carrier, he say's that's what I should be doing.....that's what most people have told me. Maybe this go around I really will consider it, he said he wants to help me, and I know he would.
I sometimes feel I'm the one motivating everyone else and no one seems to turn it around, or I don't really motivate and no one ever motivates me, anyways its really nice to have someone in my life that motivates me!! And that finds me SO fascinating!!
No guy that I have ever dated, and not even my ex that I was with for about two years was interested in my learning disability like how My Guy is, its a little freaky but sweet at the same time. I will say this though, he loves math and I like that a lot!!!He also is trying to "brain wash" me a little bit in getting into the arts for a carrier, he say's that's what I should be doing.....that's what most people have told me. Maybe this go around I really will consider it, he said he wants to help me, and I know he would.
I sometimes feel I'm the one motivating everyone else and no one seems to turn it around, or I don't really motivate and no one ever motivates me, anyways its really nice to have someone in my life that motivates me!! And that finds me SO fascinating!!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Call me Miss Flinstone, cause I can make your Bedrock!
May I just say that apparently I am a rock star to My Man in the bedroom, this might be TMI, if so then don't read on!
He told me a about a week ago that I am the best sex he has ever had, EVER HAD!!!! He is in some way for me the best sex I have ever had too. I have not had meaningful sex is a VERY LONG TIME, and I kind of forgot how the sex does feel different emotionally; I feel I'm enjoying myself more, and I feel more relaxed. Also, most fuck buddy's expect you to be all shaved, but when you have a boyfriend they don't make a big deal about it because they like you no matter what!!!!
He told me a about a week ago that I am the best sex he has ever had, EVER HAD!!!! He is in some way for me the best sex I have ever had too. I have not had meaningful sex is a VERY LONG TIME, and I kind of forgot how the sex does feel different emotionally; I feel I'm enjoying myself more, and I feel more relaxed. Also, most fuck buddy's expect you to be all shaved, but when you have a boyfriend they don't make a big deal about it because they like you no matter what!!!!
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