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Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
What I'm spose to have before I turn 30?
I got this from The Frisky.com
1. Clothes that fit the size she is now, not the size she was five years ago (duh)
2. A weekly income that covers the rent (or mortgage payment) (some day..soon!)
3. An orgasm (ummmm)
4. Always enough toilet paper (I'm not a dude!!)
5. A hair stylist she trusts (YES, and I LOVE her!!)
6. A favorite song, porn site, image, movie or fantasy that always gets her in the mood (get real!)
7. Health insurance (Check)
8. A signature drink (cheep beer and white wine?)
9. A healthy relationship with her parents (%99.9 yes)
10. Bras in the correct size (I have no boob's really for a bra but yes I wear my correct size)
11. Enough alcohol in her home to offer drop-by guests a cocktail (someday)
12. An emergency hangover remedy (sleep!)
13. A voter registration card (no, but I do vote)
14. A wardrobe that includes the perfectly flattering little black dress, a great pair of heels, jeans that make her ass look great, and a cute hat that hides a bad hair day (I don't have that "little black dress" I have plenty of great heels and I only wear jeans that make my ass look good, duh!)
15. A yearly appointment with her gynecologist (YES)
16. The name of reliable movers to give her friends when they ask for help relocating (um your on your own)
17. The gumption to ask a man out ( I have done it, dont really like to, but I have done it)
18. A group of girlfriends who get it ( I have one...)
19. A set of tools (and the ability to use them ... even if it’s just to hang a piece of art) (Oh please, just call a handy man and hope he's hot!)
20. A balanced checkbook (ummmm)
21. No interest in men who just aren’t that into her (I had to learn the hard way....and it payed off!!)
22. A vacation to look forward to at least once a year (umm sure)
23. A good bulls**t detector (what?)
24. The courage to stand up for herself and her beliefs (FUCK YEAH I DO)
25. A favorite sex position (Can you have more then one?)
26. A set of hand towels so guests don’t have dry their hands on her bath towel (gross!) (someday, I mean duh I cant stand it when people want me to wash on there towel that they dry there body off from!!)
27. Enough self-love to avoid and break off unhealthy friendships and relationships (Check)
28. A commitment to exercise (I wish my commitment was stronger, but I do have one)
29. A retirement fund (ummm)
30. A great vibrator (egh)
Most of these things are "get real" and some are "yes, duh", I think the men's one is more practical!
1. Clothes that fit the size she is now, not the size she was five years ago (duh)
2. A weekly income that covers the rent (or mortgage payment) (some day..soon!)
3. An orgasm (ummmm)
4. Always enough toilet paper (I'm not a dude!!)
5. A hair stylist she trusts (YES, and I LOVE her!!)
6. A favorite song, porn site, image, movie or fantasy that always gets her in the mood (get real!)
7. Health insurance (Check)
8. A signature drink (cheep beer and white wine?)
9. A healthy relationship with her parents (%99.9 yes)
10. Bras in the correct size (I have no boob's really for a bra but yes I wear my correct size)
11. Enough alcohol in her home to offer drop-by guests a cocktail (someday)
12. An emergency hangover remedy (sleep!)
13. A voter registration card (no, but I do vote)
14. A wardrobe that includes the perfectly flattering little black dress, a great pair of heels, jeans that make her ass look great, and a cute hat that hides a bad hair day (I don't have that "little black dress" I have plenty of great heels and I only wear jeans that make my ass look good, duh!)
15. A yearly appointment with her gynecologist (YES)
16. The name of reliable movers to give her friends when they ask for help relocating (um your on your own)
17. The gumption to ask a man out ( I have done it, dont really like to, but I have done it)
18. A group of girlfriends who get it ( I have one...)
19. A set of tools (and the ability to use them ... even if it’s just to hang a piece of art) (Oh please, just call a handy man and hope he's hot!)
20. A balanced checkbook (ummmm)
21. No interest in men who just aren’t that into her (I had to learn the hard way....and it payed off!!)
22. A vacation to look forward to at least once a year (umm sure)
23. A good bulls**t detector (what?)
24. The courage to stand up for herself and her beliefs (FUCK YEAH I DO)
25. A favorite sex position (Can you have more then one?)
26. A set of hand towels so guests don’t have dry their hands on her bath towel (gross!) (someday, I mean duh I cant stand it when people want me to wash on there towel that they dry there body off from!!)
27. Enough self-love to avoid and break off unhealthy friendships and relationships (Check)
28. A commitment to exercise (I wish my commitment was stronger, but I do have one)
29. A retirement fund (ummm)
30. A great vibrator (egh)
Most of these things are "get real" and some are "yes, duh", I think the men's one is more practical!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I'm not cut out for this world
Today I got my first "citation" driving ticket. I knew the day was going to come and I knew I was going to cry, and I did! I didn't cry to try to make the cop feel sorry, I cried because I did something wrong and I cant stand to do anything wrong, most of my life has been "WONG,your doing that wrong, your saying that wrong, your spelling that wrong, WRONG"!!! I really cant handle it, I would much rather you beat me with a stick, really, just come over to me and beat me with a stick then telling me that I'm wrong. It's not that I have to be perfect or right at everything I do, I just want to do good and I try to achieve that everyday....... well almost everyday.
When I was taking care of my baby cousin today I was thinking why I was still all upset about this and then I figured it out, and then I thought about how I'm going to deal when I'm done with school and get a real job, someone at some point is going to tell me I'm doing something wrong and it's not going to be okay to cry!!!
I really do feel sometimes that maybe I'm not cut out for this world, I really do. Life just gets really overwhelming sometimes for me and I don't handle it like an adult, I act like a child and its not okay with me!
When I was taking care of my baby cousin today I was thinking why I was still all upset about this and then I figured it out, and then I thought about how I'm going to deal when I'm done with school and get a real job, someone at some point is going to tell me I'm doing something wrong and it's not going to be okay to cry!!!
I really do feel sometimes that maybe I'm not cut out for this world, I really do. Life just gets really overwhelming sometimes for me and I don't handle it like an adult, I act like a child and its not okay with me!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Your brain is fasinating......really because I dont think it is!
When I told My Guy one day that I was dyslexic he didn't know much about it.......like the rest of the world! I told him I really struggle in school particularly in math and in a way in life too, he mentioned that he wanted to know more about dyslexia but I just thought he said that to be nice and sound interested....wrong! The dude ordered a book called something along the lines of "The gift of dyslexia" and has been reading it now for about 2 weeks? Over the weekend I wanted to check out the stores on Height St. to see if they had anything better than what down town had to offer (no such luck...what is going on people, why am I not finding anything i like...I need some new tops, hello!!!) and he wanted to come along......because he wanted to be with his honey bee :) Barf....anyways he brought his book with him and when i would look at cloths he would read his book, at one point I passed by him and he said "T your brain is fascinating" I gave him a little smirk and said to him "Really? I find it to be annoying!"
No guy that I have ever dated, and not even my ex that I was with for about two years was interested in my learning disability like how My Guy is, its a little freaky but sweet at the same time. I will say this though, he loves math and I like that a lot!!!He also is trying to "brain wash" me a little bit in getting into the arts for a carrier, he say's that's what I should be doing.....that's what most people have told me. Maybe this go around I really will consider it, he said he wants to help me, and I know he would.
I sometimes feel I'm the one motivating everyone else and no one seems to turn it around, or I don't really motivate and no one ever motivates me, anyways its really nice to have someone in my life that motivates me!! And that finds me SO fascinating!!
No guy that I have ever dated, and not even my ex that I was with for about two years was interested in my learning disability like how My Guy is, its a little freaky but sweet at the same time. I will say this though, he loves math and I like that a lot!!!He also is trying to "brain wash" me a little bit in getting into the arts for a carrier, he say's that's what I should be doing.....that's what most people have told me. Maybe this go around I really will consider it, he said he wants to help me, and I know he would.
I sometimes feel I'm the one motivating everyone else and no one seems to turn it around, or I don't really motivate and no one ever motivates me, anyways its really nice to have someone in my life that motivates me!! And that finds me SO fascinating!!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Call me Miss Flinstone, cause I can make your Bedrock!
May I just say that apparently I am a rock star to My Man in the bedroom, this might be TMI, if so then don't read on!
He told me a about a week ago that I am the best sex he has ever had, EVER HAD!!!! He is in some way for me the best sex I have ever had too. I have not had meaningful sex is a VERY LONG TIME, and I kind of forgot how the sex does feel different emotionally; I feel I'm enjoying myself more, and I feel more relaxed. Also, most fuck buddy's expect you to be all shaved, but when you have a boyfriend they don't make a big deal about it because they like you no matter what!!!!
He told me a about a week ago that I am the best sex he has ever had, EVER HAD!!!! He is in some way for me the best sex I have ever had too. I have not had meaningful sex is a VERY LONG TIME, and I kind of forgot how the sex does feel different emotionally; I feel I'm enjoying myself more, and I feel more relaxed. Also, most fuck buddy's expect you to be all shaved, but when you have a boyfriend they don't make a big deal about it because they like you no matter what!!!!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
I will only go shopping with you!
I think I'm going to call this guy in my life "My Guy", I have always liked that song, and latley we have been "stuck like glue" so why not! My Guy told me the other day that he's never going shopping for cloths or any other kind of shopping (expect for food) alone, he thinks I have a good eye for things......don't mean to toot my own horn but I do! For example, he needed a new bed and new bedding, so last weekend we looked at beds, we first went to Sleep Train, NEVER EVER, EVER GO THERE!!! Sleep Train is a RIP OFF!!! A thousand or two dollars for a mattress??? I talked him out of it and told him he has a hole in his head if he spends that much money on a mattress!! So we went to Mancini's and OMG what a price difference!!! Not only were the works not all leachy to us, they left us alone but were around if we had questions, AND for what My Guy got was way less then a thousand or two, we are talking mid hundreds people; AND delivered the next day!!
The following weekend we went shopping for bed sheets and a duvet cover and some cloths too. I took him to H&M and he acted like he just saw Elvis, he didn't know about H&M and he couldn't believe how trendy the cloths were for how cheep they were, oh boys!! This is a picture of the bedding I helped pick out with him, he got it at CB2 (Crate and Barrel 2), I was really happy the way it turned out!
This picture is his old bed, his new bed is really nice, all high and soft and doesnt makes noises when you move....crappy bed frame, but not anymore!!
The following weekend we went shopping for bed sheets and a duvet cover and some cloths too. I took him to H&M and he acted like he just saw Elvis, he didn't know about H&M and he couldn't believe how trendy the cloths were for how cheep they were, oh boys!! This is a picture of the bedding I helped pick out with him, he got it at CB2 (Crate and Barrel 2), I was really happy the way it turned out!
This picture is his old bed, his new bed is really nice, all high and soft and doesnt makes noises when you move....crappy bed frame, but not anymore!!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Maybe less doubt.......maybe alot less doubt!
After I finished the last blog I got a text message from my guy (have not decided on a name yet)and he asked if he could call me before I go to bed because he had some more feelings to share with me, I said fine.H
He called and I really was not sure how the conversation was going to go, he said to me that in way that what he has with me he would be a fool to loose it, he questioned how the world brought us together but he has stopped now and is just enjoying learning about each other.This really made me smile and made me feel better and have a lot less doubt. I know I get impatient about things like this "does he like me, or doesn't he?".He shows me everyday how much I mean to him and I should slap myself and enjoy it!!
He called and I really was not sure how the conversation was going to go, he said to me that in way that what he has with me he would be a fool to loose it, he questioned how the world brought us together but he has stopped now and is just enjoying learning about each other.This really made me smile and made me feel better and have a lot less doubt. I know I get impatient about things like this "does he like me, or doesn't he?".He shows me everyday how much I mean to him and I should slap myself and enjoy it!!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Doubts
Sometimes I feel that I'm not entitled to things in life like everyone else is, and when do find myself having or experiencing something that most people do have I feel I don't really deserve it. I have met this extremely nice man, who makes me smile and laugh all the time, who also makes me feel calm, but I'm doubting I deserve him in my life. He has been very honest with me the whole time and I have been too.....well kind of. I really like him, like really really like him.....a like so strong and its very close to love! And my heart is growing stronger and stronger by the minute for this guy and I'm scared that he's not going to give me what I want. It is still early and I have asked him at some point down the road will we be more than friends, maybe it was a bad idea to ask but I said I didn't want to get my heart deep into something that I thought was going one way when really it was going the other way. He said I am very special to him and he likes me a lot and he wants to see me everyday if he could and he is looking forward to the future with me. This was all nice but not what I really wanted to hear, I give this 2 more months and if I'm not more than a friend then its time to say good bye.
I have so much love to give and I cant give it if I'm not going to get it back the way I should be getting it. There is friend love and then there is the love you have for your boyfriend or husband the two are somewhat different.
The feelings that have developed are feelings that I have not had for a very long time, its nice to feel them again, I thought they were a dream I once had, but no, they were real at one time and they came back!
Times like these I fight with myself in thinking not getting involved with someone might be better for me, being alone maybe is better.
I have doubts.
I have so much love to give and I cant give it if I'm not going to get it back the way I should be getting it. There is friend love and then there is the love you have for your boyfriend or husband the two are somewhat different.
The feelings that have developed are feelings that I have not had for a very long time, its nice to feel them again, I thought they were a dream I once had, but no, they were real at one time and they came back!
Times like these I fight with myself in thinking not getting involved with someone might be better for me, being alone maybe is better.
I have doubts.
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