Worst weekend ever!

I have realized that I really don't like to go out on Friday nights, I like to be home sitting on my couch or bed watching a movie and going to bed at a decent hour so I can wake up at like 8:30-9am and have a wonderful Saturday!

I also dont like the feeling knowing that if I didnt show up at a bar, club, house party, whatever it really wouldn't have mattered, even though you were begged and had a gun put to your head to show up..............your time was waisted and you felt used! I hate to waist people's time, and rarely ever will I use someone, I feel very strongly about Karma! I was thinking about friendships in SF, looking at my past....lets just say I have shoes that are older.

I was asked last night by MyGuy if I missed anything about being single and I told him that I missed being able to wake up in the morning and just go, like not having to tell anyone what your going to do for the weekend, you are able to just get up and go. I also wanted to add, drama. I HATE drama, and thats what I felt this weekend was all about, being single, the only drama you have is with yourself and you can stop that as fast as you started; but not when your seeing someone. I love MyGuy very much and I dont often think about being single, I only think about it when times get tough because I really can't handle drama with people it is VERY overwhelming for me, my brain feels like it's going to explode. I would have to say that's when I crave being by myself the most and the power to snap my fingers and be away from that person.

All I want I feel are simple things, be there for me like I am for you, be a true friend, dont put drama in my life because I will go out of my way to not put it in yours, know that sometimes I want to be left alone and not take it personally.

I'm pissed, heartbroken, drained, let down and overwhelmed.

"I don't want to be alone, I want to be left alone"
Audrey Hepburn

Lady G gave me goose bumps

My friend, myself and My Guy all went to the Lady Gaga concert last night! I have to say that I'm really glad that my friend came because it was so nice to have someone to sing and dance along with.....I miss the day's we used to get down and funky while waiting at bus stops!!!

Lady Gaga's performance was awesome, I liked that she took some time to talk with her fan's, she did get cheesy at times, but it was okay. She gave me goose bumps at one point when she went on a "born this way" speech. I know this is about being gay and be proud of it, but what about being blind,handicap,black, having red hair, being dyslexic? Does that apply? Knowing Gaga, I would assume she would agree. It's really hard sometimes to love yourself for what you are, and yes I was born dyslexic and this is who I am, her speech made me think if the gay's need to except who they are so should I!

Thanks Gaga!

Take me

Rambling list

I really miss my Sunday's - laundry, grocery shopping, cleaning, hanging out with my Mom.

If your going to Europe soon don't watch the movie Taken, because all I can think about is being taken and never seen again and i'll have to fuck nasty ass fat fucks and I know I will get the worst vaginal infection I could ever think of, among other things!

I don't like that I'm only 27 and I already have hemorrhoids and gray hair, like come on!!! The gray hair....could we just wait till i'm 30? And the hemorrhoids....age 40?


I wish I could meet someone who never said anything about my body.

I wonder do people question if they feel they are a good friend/sibling/spouse/boyfriend, girlfriend? I have been thinking this lately.

I need some sun on my bones.

I joined the YMCA and I'm hoping to turn this bag of bones of a body into something cool.


I would like to get stoned and then dance.

Knocked it out of the park!

I am in love with almost every piece in this RTW (ready to wear) fall 11/12 Chanel collection!!!



WOW!!!!

It's like saying you like cucumbers but you don't like pickles

I remember when I decided that I did not like Prada, her style does not appeal to me at all what so ever, but a few months back I found out that Miu Miu's creater is Miuccia Prada, who is Prada....have I confused you? I have seen a few Miu Miu show's on youtube and have been pleased but not blown away until now! And I kind of feel like it's that feeling that you know that pickles come from cumbers, but you prefer cucumbers over pickles anyways because of the look and taste. I guess that apply's to Miu Miu vs Prada.

These are a few of my favorite from the Miu Miu Fall 2011 collection and I also added the video of the show. I like the collection tords the end,the music also picks up a bit more, and I love the shoes from start to finish....glitter....YES PLEASE!!!

Heels

Last Friday I was feeling kind of sad and the sad me wanted to stay in bed and hide from the world but the other side told me that I needed to get my ass to Walgreen's so I got my ass up and out of the house. I would say I am a somewhat snazzy dresser, I like to go out of my way to look nice/stylish a young lady in her late 20's, so I thought I would put on some heels.....I know, just a 5 block walk to Walgreen's but come on, I was looking for a "lets try to feel hot". I put on these clogs that have a slight heel to them, I was happy with my outfit, but when I left the house and as I was walking I started to feel stupid and I don't think I have ever felt stupid when I have worn heels in the past, if anything they have made me feel powerful! Maybe it could have been from my mood but I do make fun of the girls who wear heels to school, have you been to CCSF, it is a VERY hilly school, your heel's could easily pop off!!

I have A LOT of heels and I wish I could wear them more often but San Francisco I would say is a not a heel friendly city, I'm more of a flat boot girl, I need to know that I can get around with my feet!

I think it was just my mood.

Falling hard....

for Hard Mix! I can't stop playing this song!!

Pulled in 5 million ways

So I didn't get the job, but I'm okay with it....kind of. But it was nice that the lady said what I should work on. Now I know for next time!

My ant is driving me crazy, after I told her that I didn't get the job she called me one evening and left a long message on my cell, I think she was drunk by the way, letting me know that it was fine that I didn't get the job (I'm aware of this that its okay, thank you). I wish I could some how have the message on this post but I'm not that tech sav. She wants me to go back to school but not just any school, a school like Held College, My Guy is not in favor of this, my Mom is in the middle and I really have no idea how I feel about any of this. I do know that I would love it if people would stay out of my life and let me decide on what I would like to do........I mean after all it is my life, right?

I also have been feeling trapped or left out, like I'm keeping myself locked away. There is something missing about me I feel and it's bringing me down.

Don't want anyone to talk to you? Do the face!

My very good friend shared this with me and I think this is one of the best video's and idea's I think I have maybe ever seen! I also can't wait to do this!



Thank you friend :)