Fallow up on "Adult World"

I played it cool I would say for the most part, the only time I got nervous was when the lady wanted be to do some stuff on the computer. I forgot how to do some stuff and I was also not familiar with of the systems she wanted to to use. She also asked me to set up some packet and I asked her if there was a model already made in how it should look and she said "no" so I just winged it and of cores it was wrong..........well what did you expect me to do when I had nothing to work with! Towards the end of the say the lady seemed a little bit over me asking me questions and she said I could go home, she said that she would send me my check and let me know if I need to come in next week. I care but don't at the same time, I talked with my cousin last night ans she said it seemed like I did everything just fine, she said it takes someone who starts a new job at least 3 months to adjust to everything at the work place, and she also said "it's your first day, of cores your going to ask questions!"

I really liked the office and the location, there is a really nice area down the block to sit and have lunch at and my bus line is like 3 blocks away, the other people in the office seemed really nice and I could see myself working there, but maybe this lady didn't, who knows. I was also telling my cousin I didn't know what was expected of me and also was there something I had to do that was going to make it or break it for me to get the job.

Mixed feelings is what I have, about this job, and about myself.

"Adult world"......as my mother likes to call it when you have a job

I had a phone interview about 3 weeks ago....I think it was that long ago. Anyways, they were the first job that I applied for that called me back and wanted to talk me! And they are the first job that I applied for that wanted me to come in to their office and "work" for them for a day and I get paid for it even if I screw it up!

I am a kind of surprised with myself that I'm not freaking out, I mean I am worried on how I'm going to do and how its going to go and if they are going to like me and am I going to like them, but at the same time I feel like "oh well"! What I am freaking out about is though, this is it, adult hood is here and it's coming strong!

I have set out my cloths to wear for tomorrow, I have packed my bag all is missing is my lunch that I will fix tomorrow morning, I have my iPod packed with a great playlist (almost typed mix tape). I'm going over in my head on how its all going to go, I just hope the women who I will be working for is as nice as she was on the phone. I will be working for a headhunting company and I will be the paid intern who will be doing clerical work. I start at 10am - 5:30 (maybe)it's down town and the only exciting part about this is that my friend's office is not too far away and I might get to see my brother (he's a bike messenger).

I'll keep you posted on how it went!

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Well, "Adult World" here you are, no turning back now!

Thom busting a move!

I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY FOR SOME NEW RADIOHEAD MUSIC AND VIDEO'S!!!!!! I hope they tour!!!!!

I felt a little bit like a perv, but who cares!

Do you really care when I talk?

Do you find yourself you start talking with someone and you know they dont really have any interest in listening to you unless it has something to do with them? But when they talk, you give them your 100% attention? Sometimes I wonder do these people know how they are acting?

I would say I'm an honest person 98% of the time, if I know the person on a personal level and when they start talking about something and I have no interest in talking with them I will tell them right off the bat, or let them know to tell me later because I dont want to waist my time or theirs. I do and I don't like to talk about myself but I would say when this does happen its most of the time in a funny way, I dont like to pull out the "owe me is me" card........who cares that your dyslexic, who cares that you went to therapy, who cares if you have issues with your parents!!! Unless you want to know about me then I will tell you but I have to feel comfortable with you, but I get more pleasure learning about the other person that way I don't have to worry about "am I talking too much?".

If you find yourself not really listening to the other person try to turn on the ears and remember when you talk that other person they always listen's to you!

Theo I would kiss you......shhh don't tell my boyfriend!

I never really liked your bags, until now!

OMFG!!!! Seriously, like how awesome is this bag??? I was never really a fan of Alexander Wang cloths or bags, but I wouldn't say I disliked his stuff either, for sure I would always check it out because his stuff are all over the fashion blogs. Anyways, I'm dying for this bag, I almost want to go to Saks just to see it in person and touch it. I remember when I went to Barny's and got to see the Givenchy Nightingale handbag, I love the design but the bag is just way to big and WAY to expensive!!!!








You can check out the bag here.

Storage

I'm in some need of making giving my room a face lift and for sure I would say the number one thing it could use would be more storage. But I also want to get rid of some furniture that I have as well, if it was up to me all I would have in my room would be my dresser and bed, but such a life! So this is what I'm thinking about or have in mind.....does that kind of mean the same thing?


(I really like that it's an office/ storage, I kind of feel it would hold everything in what I'm looking for that needs....holding)



(I feel I don't really need something like this, it would be just a want and also I dont know where I would put it)


(I like this one just a bit more then the first one only because it's longer and the style is really simple)


(I know this has nothing to do with storage but my Ant has one of these baby's in her house and they always reminded me of an upside down crown, I will show you one day the worst light fixture EVER and its in my room, this might be tacky, but it would for sure put some glitz in my room!)

Made for me!

A few months ago a coupon was presented on Yelp for $50 but could buy you $100 dollars worth of cloths, this was an awesome deal and also this store was right up my ally! They sold these brand of jeans that I had been eying for a while now, JBrand and Cheep Monday (Swedish brand) it was my lucky day because not only did they have my size but they also had the colors of jean's I wanted too!The custmor service was awesome, I can't say enough about this store.......and it's called CandyStore Collective! They have 2 locations but the one in the Mission is the one to go to for the jeans! As My Guy and I were checking out on the counter there was some bottles of perfume, and as My Guy can't keep his hands to himself, every 2 seconds "how do you like this smell?" after smelling 3 bottles of what granny would wear I smelled something AMAZING; it was like that perfect perfume you think about in your head if you could make one, this would be it, and also it's REAL PERFUME, the real deal people! It's made by YOSH and the fragrance that i'm in love with is called U4eahhi 2.43, when you go to the website and press on the fragrance it's crazy to read who this lady made this sent for..........um hello for me! Pomegranate, aloe vera, cucumber, pear, water lily, Pomegranate and pear had me sold and also there is a numerology set up and number is 3, friendly, social, artistic.....I think I'm those things.

I don't want to do this.....

Do you ever have that day were you would like to throw your body in front of a moving bus, well today is that kind of day for me. The only good thing about today is the weather, and I wish I was excited about that!

This whole adult thing is really catching up to me, I'm not like freaking out about "oh, man I'm an adult now, shit, what do I do" no, it's more like stuff is going to happen and I don't know how the hell I'm going to deal. My Guy and sometimes have heavy conversations and I freak out a little bit because it way too much for me, and it really makes me question myself if I am capable to handle life, would I be better off being stuck in a padded wall cell?

I had this fast conversation with this girl I met one night when I was having drinks with a long time friend who was visiting from NYC, she was bipolar and she was dyslexic, I started to say something like "you feel like your only good at this one thing, and if I'm only good at this one thing then whats the point of living on this planet if I can only offer one thing" she looked me for a second like I was a ghost and then said "it's like you were in my head", that made me feel good for a bit to know that someone else feels that way out there. I told My Guy the other day, I look at the end of my day like "Well I didn't understand today, so maybe I will tomorrow" I feel like thats my life, thats how it is everyday for me.

I woke up this morning feeling like shit.