Ms. H, this reminded me of you!

My Life as Liz - MTV Shows

By the way I am WAY into this show, Its not "real" I know but I LOVE Liz!!!!

Embarrassing Pleasure

I found when I was taking care of the 3yr old boy and he wanted me to color with him I got very excited because I really like to color in coloring books!! And when I was going out with Mr. Romain, I was feeling kind of stressed out around that time in my life and I remembered that coloring made me feel relaxed, so I went out and bought some coloring books, markers and crayons. I also liked to color the monthly picture Trader Joe's would provide, too bad I didn't take a picture of the Thanksgiving one, I was really proud of that! I know I'm way to old for this but I really enjoy it and it makes me happy and I think that's way more important!!


(My brother felt the elves needed fangs, and he also felt that they should be giving the snow man family a bomb.....was not happy about this!!)



(My favorite girl!)



(This one took forever to color!)


(Mostly by crayons)



(Not really a fan of this one)

Old stopping grounds and Hawaii reflections

My family and I went to see my ant her husband in Hawaii, the trip was really nice even though I got more bug bites than a tan!! The couple that helps out on the property are around my age and last summer the girl just started to take Bikram yoga, I was going to go with her but I got a nasty sunburn and then my period started....it was best I didn't go. But this time, no sunburn and period free, YAY!!! All I had ever herd from people was that Bikram is hard core, its a great challenge, its good for this, its good for that, bla bla bla; I couldn't look at the positive stuff I all could focus on was the scary stuff like your in a room that's 105!! I also had herd you can feel nauseous or faint, but Casey said don't worry if you feel that way you can step outside, everyone is really nice in the class. So I did it, last week on Wed, and....drum roll...it was not a challenge at all!!! Sorry!!! The heat was whatever, the poses was whatever, well I should t really say that there were 2 poses I couldn't do, it involved me arching my back backwards....Camel pose? I thought I was going to throw up, I forget the other one, but all the rest was easy. The second day I went Fri, Casey and I felt it was a little bit hotter in the room than the last time, and I don't know if having a salty lunch played a roll in it but I sweated so much on Fir that I was dripping!! I'm not sure if I want to take up a class, there is one kind of close to my house 5 min street care ride, it was cool but not really a challenging for me like I thought it was going to be. There is this other activity that I have been wanting to try out for a while now, its a secret for now :)

After dinner my bother and I would watch a movie, him and I had been wanting to see 500 Days of Summer, so that's what we watched.....lame!! My brother loved it but I thought it was such a disappointment! That night I was thinking why I didn't like this film so much......well the girl has been like almost every guy I have ever dated; like I seem to always be way more into the guy than the guy is into me. And also I didn't like that the guy in the movie didn't tell her she's a fucked up in the head bitch!!We also watched The Hangover and that I LOVED, it also got me thinking after the movie, even though what went on in the movie could highly doubtfully happen in real life, I did feel that I need to live my life more like a party.

With that,before I left for Hawaii, I went out last Friday night, I hung out with my friends co-worker, she lives out in the Nob Hill area, where my Ex used to live, I never go out that way anymore so it was a little funny to see what some of the places we used to go to for lunch or dinner/drinks looked like now (some the same and some closed). I was the first one to arrive to her place and she couldnt stop talking about the awesome weed my brother had given her and then how her guy friend from college was coming over in a few minutes and she said I was going to like him....little did I know I would....! Her friend arrived and um, well, hello Indie Clark Kent, hot, hot, hot, I was high as a kite and kind of tipsy from the vodka and soda, this guy had huge harry arms and was manly all over, I wanted to rip his cloths off and screw this guy till the sun came up........BUT I played it cool....for the time being!! After her other friends arrived, her neighbor stopped by, this guy was so creepy I was ready to punch him in the face. We offered if he wanted to smoke but he said he was already high from smoking with his friends...I think he was on something else, we asked him where he's from and says New Mexico, I told him "NM, you forget about that state, when you think of the US, you don't think of NM" he said that he has talked with some people who didn't even know that we have a sate called New Mexico....dumb asses!!

At some point I start talking with Mr. Creepy and he finds out that I'm an SF native, he said this city must have cool to grow up in as a child, and I said yes, but now it I think its kind of lame for kids, this used to be a family city but now its not anymore. I dont know how the conversation turned for the worst, but some how I said, when I tell people I'm a native they think I'm ether gay, I grew up in a Victorian house or I smoke pot....only one would be true, then this fucker adds or your a hipster, then he looks me up and down and smirks!!! I said "wow I never herd that one before, I think most of the hipsters come from LA, I look hipster to you?" "well your wearing a lot of black" "Oh no, I just worship the devil, that's why I wear a lot of black" Indie Clark Kent got a kick out that, and I turned all of my attention to him, Mr. Creepy left and so did we!!

I don't remember what bar we went to or what area of the city, but I do remember having LOTS of FUN!!! Indie Clark Kent and I were talking and flirting, he was trying to be a gentleman my not grabbing my ass, he felt just grazing it every now and then was safe ;) I don't remember leaving to go to the other bar, but I do remember it was really pretty inside and ICK know who La Roux was and then I for sure wanted him to grab my ass!! Some electro/hip hop mix was playing I asked him if he likes to dance and he said yes (score) so everyone is dancing and he comes up behind me and starts to dance with me; I normally would get freaked out by this but I was so drunk and stoned and I didn't care!! I remember tuning around to tell him he's a good dancer and gab about something else but then he drove in for a kiss and we kissed it felt like for hours, and yes he grabbed my ass, finally!! I had to pull away because I thought we were going to get in trouble by the bar, he sat down to the bench by us and had me sit on his lap, he wanted to kiss some more and so we did; then the lights went on (2am) and we left the bar and hopped in a cab and headed back to my friends place.

When we all got inside I had to pee like a mofo, after I was done I went to wash my hands and I looked in the mirror and my top lip was all black and blue!!! I looked like someone punched my upper lip, I was like "wtf happened??" and then I realized I was seriously sucking face with ICK, we were biting....it was awesome, but the end result not to much!! I head over to ICK and I show him what he did to my lip, he laughed and said he was sorry, I sleep off my drunkenness and sneaked out at 5am to head back home....finding a cab sucked but I got one.

I had SO MUCH FUN, when I was watching The Hangover I was thinking about last Friday and thinking how I need to have fun like that more often!! Even if I have to pay the price for a hangover the next morning and a bruised lip!!

My Stripper Dance Song

Delete my number!

Monday night I'm at House of Shields and my friend and I are getting ready to leave and I feel my phone vibrate in my bag, I take it out and I get a text from someone I do not know, random number asking if I'd like to go on a date! I show it to my friend and she's like "is it Arms, or Mr. Romanian?" I said no, I know those numbers, so her and the bartender (who we know) said to reply back to this text and ask who is this, so I did and no reply back. Now this could have been a wrong text or it could have been some guy I went out with....witch leads me to my topic!

On new years day, 3:30am Mr. Romanian texted me happy new year, I did not reply back although I did want to asking him to please delete my number from his cell! This other guy that I was seeing one summer I know still has my number his is cell, why do guys(maybe ladies too)keep numbers of people they dated and know they are never going to talk or see ever again? Once I'm done with a guy his number it is deleted from my cell, there is no reason to have him in my cell anymore, I'm never going to call the crazy or jerk (that's what I seem to ever go out with) ever again.....even if the sex was amazing! It also doesn't allow me on drunk or horny nights to call or text them. Just knowing that they have my number I get worried that they will do this to me, and possibly one did...the mystery texter!

Please delete my number, please!!

I hear the roar of a big machine Two worlds and in between Hot metal and methedrine I hear empire down..

Not a resolution, but I'm going to try to keep this!

I had an REALLY REALLY awesome new years, the best I think maybe ever! I dare say I was happy the whole night....the booze what part of it, but before I got drunk I was happy. I went to a house party only knowing 2 people, it wasn't a packed party, no hot guys, I think I was the oldest, but all of this was okay because I had a fun!! We drank and danced and sang to cheesy music.......Back Street Boys!!

At one point during the party I started to talk to one of the guys, I don't remember how the conversation started but I talked about how guys in the city suck, bla bla bla, and I said I get caught in the one night stand thing. The guy shook his head and he said I need to stop doing that, I told him I know. One of my friends said the same thing to me a week a go as well, if you give up the goods too soon they are not going to come back for more. So this leads me to a "resolution" for the new year; no more giving up the goods! If this means that I might go with out sex for a year....or more (lets hope not) then so be it! I am an A+ and I deserve to have someone else think that too about me. My cousin told me, one day you want a red sweater so you go out shopping for a red sweater and you look and look and look and finlay find one but its not really what you had in mind but you buy it anyways and then like a month or two later THE RED SWEATER appears......in other words dont settle! And thats another thing i'm going to try not to do too, or to do?

1. Don't give up the goods so soon
2. Don't settle

I hope this helps me. I feel it inside of me that this year is going to be a good one, school wise I know its going to be hard and sometimes sad, and I'm okay with this. I think this is going to give me more of a backbone and who cant use a stronger one right?

I hope everyone had an amazing new year, YAY for 2010!!

December Favorites!

Merry Christmas!!

I forget to post for November, and I like to post my favorite things on the 20th of the month, maybe just doing it whenever of that month would be better....we shall see!

When I saw this girl posted on Stockholm Street Style I got all excited, I really LOVE her look and maybe some day be bold enough to get a hair cut like hers.....as for now I'm growing mine out as long as I can!!



It drives me crazy when I discover a band and you cant buy any of their music! The Misshapes would be one of them, also Leigh Lezark is HOT and what I also love about this band is that they are really really popular in the fashion world....how many bands/DJ's get to preform for a fashion show?




I am so hooked to these guys, I cant wait when they come to SF....I really hope they do!!

Regretting Arms!

Last Thursday night Arms and I met up at El Rio for drinks. I was super nervous and I had the voice my cousin in the back of my head repeating over and over again "be nice, first dates are hard!". When I arrived at the bar Arms bought me a beer and then we went outside to sit down.....I thought El Rio would be perfect because Arms could smoke away his nerves and I could keep my jacket on for security reasons! Conversation was going great, lots of things to talk about, I was making him laugh he was making me laugh we where keeping things classy.....until I think the booze started to really sink in with Arms!! I don't remember how it came up (I was a little buzzed myself!) but he asked what body parts do I like on a guy and I told him, "hands, nice thick clean hands, a wide back and a harry chest" he asked, "that's it?" I said "well no, but I'm trying to keep is classy" and he said, "well now you have to tell me" I said fine as I knew this information was going to get me into trouble!! I told him my love for saggy balls, he laughed and said that was hot, he then added that he doesn't think he has ever met a girl who loves balls....I guess I'm your first!! We met at the bar at 8 and it was now 11:30, he said he was hungry and asked if I was too, I said no but I'd go with him if he wanted to continue the evening, he said sure. We left the bar and went into a restaurant near by, at this point he was really dropping the sexy talk and I knew this guy wanted to have sex, but what I didn't know was that's all he wanted!!!!

I told him I have nothing to do the next day and he said he didn't as well, I offered to drive him home, we get to his house and he asked if I wanted to come in, I said sure. His room was clean and very organized I was VERY impressed! He lit up a joint and we smoked and talked some more, he was acting a little bit odd, but I didnt think too much of it. The chair I was sitting on was killing my ass so I moved to the bed, I guess this was an invite for him to make the moves so he did! Kissing, cloths coming off...he was a good kisser and he had some good moves, but then once he shoved my head down south everything else went down south! I forgot to mention that when I told him I liked saggy balls he said he had saggy balls.......UM NO HE DID NOT!!! I'm also going to say that this is the second middle eastern guy I have been with and the first guy's dick was so small that I got freaked out, Arms was packin just a little bit more but still a disappointment!! I really thought this guy was hung....DAMMIT!! He was also into some things sexually that I was not into, like cumming on a girls face or in her mouth, look cum tastes nasty I don't care what you think it is gross and messy and I don't like it!! BUT I let him do it once....I didn't know that he was going to do it!! The sex was whatever, after we were done he sat in his bean bag and I sat up on the bed, he asked if I wanted to smoke some more and I said, "I don't think its a good idea if I'll be driving home tonight, unless you want me to stay" he said "Yeah, I think its better if I didn't spend the night I'm really tired and it might be awkward the next morning" NEVER HAVE I EVER BEEN ASKED TO LEAVE AFTER SEX, NEVER!!!! I got up put my cloths on he walked me to the car, gave me a hug and then said "call me if you want to hang out again, I'll leave it up to you" I smiled and said okay, I got into that car and deleted him from my phone and then cried on the drive home!!

What did I learn from this? That I'm kind of a sad person? I will never sleep with a middle eastern guy EVER again! I need to really figure out what the hell do I want because I think I'm VERY confused!! One part of me wants a boyfriend and then the other just wants to fuck.........one or the other T!!!

That morning I work up and I could feel the all of my eye shadow and mascara crusty around my eyes, my mouth tasted like a condom and my heart felt like it was in my stomach, I wanted to die!! And I still kind of feel that way, not so much about what happened last Thursday but this was just like the icing on the cake for me from other things going on in my life and I'm really sad!

I Blame Coco!