Falling hard....

for Hard Mix! I can't stop playing this song!!

Pulled in 5 million ways

So I didn't get the job, but I'm okay with it....kind of. But it was nice that the lady said what I should work on. Now I know for next time!

My ant is driving me crazy, after I told her that I didn't get the job she called me one evening and left a long message on my cell, I think she was drunk by the way, letting me know that it was fine that I didn't get the job (I'm aware of this that its okay, thank you). I wish I could some how have the message on this post but I'm not that tech sav. She wants me to go back to school but not just any school, a school like Held College, My Guy is not in favor of this, my Mom is in the middle and I really have no idea how I feel about any of this. I do know that I would love it if people would stay out of my life and let me decide on what I would like to do........I mean after all it is my life, right?

I also have been feeling trapped or left out, like I'm keeping myself locked away. There is something missing about me I feel and it's bringing me down.

Don't want anyone to talk to you? Do the face!

My very good friend shared this with me and I think this is one of the best video's and idea's I think I have maybe ever seen! I also can't wait to do this!



Thank you friend :)

Just my style

A new love for a designer called Tibi, aka Amy Smilovic. Her design and color's are just breathtaking and I must share a few of my fav's from her collocation.

Fallow up on "Adult World"

I played it cool I would say for the most part, the only time I got nervous was when the lady wanted be to do some stuff on the computer. I forgot how to do some stuff and I was also not familiar with of the systems she wanted to to use. She also asked me to set up some packet and I asked her if there was a model already made in how it should look and she said "no" so I just winged it and of cores it was wrong..........well what did you expect me to do when I had nothing to work with! Towards the end of the say the lady seemed a little bit over me asking me questions and she said I could go home, she said that she would send me my check and let me know if I need to come in next week. I care but don't at the same time, I talked with my cousin last night ans she said it seemed like I did everything just fine, she said it takes someone who starts a new job at least 3 months to adjust to everything at the work place, and she also said "it's your first day, of cores your going to ask questions!"

I really liked the office and the location, there is a really nice area down the block to sit and have lunch at and my bus line is like 3 blocks away, the other people in the office seemed really nice and I could see myself working there, but maybe this lady didn't, who knows. I was also telling my cousin I didn't know what was expected of me and also was there something I had to do that was going to make it or break it for me to get the job.

Mixed feelings is what I have, about this job, and about myself.

"Adult world"......as my mother likes to call it when you have a job

I had a phone interview about 3 weeks ago....I think it was that long ago. Anyways, they were the first job that I applied for that called me back and wanted to talk me! And they are the first job that I applied for that wanted me to come in to their office and "work" for them for a day and I get paid for it even if I screw it up!

I am a kind of surprised with myself that I'm not freaking out, I mean I am worried on how I'm going to do and how its going to go and if they are going to like me and am I going to like them, but at the same time I feel like "oh well"! What I am freaking out about is though, this is it, adult hood is here and it's coming strong!

I have set out my cloths to wear for tomorrow, I have packed my bag all is missing is my lunch that I will fix tomorrow morning, I have my iPod packed with a great playlist (almost typed mix tape). I'm going over in my head on how its all going to go, I just hope the women who I will be working for is as nice as she was on the phone. I will be working for a headhunting company and I will be the paid intern who will be doing clerical work. I start at 10am - 5:30 (maybe)it's down town and the only exciting part about this is that my friend's office is not too far away and I might get to see my brother (he's a bike messenger).

I'll keep you posted on how it went!

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Well, "Adult World" here you are, no turning back now!

Thom busting a move!

I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY FOR SOME NEW RADIOHEAD MUSIC AND VIDEO'S!!!!!! I hope they tour!!!!!

I felt a little bit like a perv, but who cares!

Do you really care when I talk?

Do you find yourself you start talking with someone and you know they dont really have any interest in listening to you unless it has something to do with them? But when they talk, you give them your 100% attention? Sometimes I wonder do these people know how they are acting?

I would say I'm an honest person 98% of the time, if I know the person on a personal level and when they start talking about something and I have no interest in talking with them I will tell them right off the bat, or let them know to tell me later because I dont want to waist my time or theirs. I do and I don't like to talk about myself but I would say when this does happen its most of the time in a funny way, I dont like to pull out the "owe me is me" card........who cares that your dyslexic, who cares that you went to therapy, who cares if you have issues with your parents!!! Unless you want to know about me then I will tell you but I have to feel comfortable with you, but I get more pleasure learning about the other person that way I don't have to worry about "am I talking too much?".

If you find yourself not really listening to the other person try to turn on the ears and remember when you talk that other person they always listen's to you!

Theo I would kiss you......shhh don't tell my boyfriend!