My Stripper Dance Song

Delete my number!

Monday night I'm at House of Shields and my friend and I are getting ready to leave and I feel my phone vibrate in my bag, I take it out and I get a text from someone I do not know, random number asking if I'd like to go on a date! I show it to my friend and she's like "is it Arms, or Mr. Romanian?" I said no, I know those numbers, so her and the bartender (who we know) said to reply back to this text and ask who is this, so I did and no reply back. Now this could have been a wrong text or it could have been some guy I went out with....witch leads me to my topic!

On new years day, 3:30am Mr. Romanian texted me happy new year, I did not reply back although I did want to asking him to please delete my number from his cell! This other guy that I was seeing one summer I know still has my number his is cell, why do guys(maybe ladies too)keep numbers of people they dated and know they are never going to talk or see ever again? Once I'm done with a guy his number it is deleted from my cell, there is no reason to have him in my cell anymore, I'm never going to call the crazy or jerk (that's what I seem to ever go out with) ever again.....even if the sex was amazing! It also doesn't allow me on drunk or horny nights to call or text them. Just knowing that they have my number I get worried that they will do this to me, and possibly one did...the mystery texter!

Please delete my number, please!!

I hear the roar of a big machine Two worlds and in between Hot metal and methedrine I hear empire down..

Not a resolution, but I'm going to try to keep this!

I had an REALLY REALLY awesome new years, the best I think maybe ever! I dare say I was happy the whole night....the booze what part of it, but before I got drunk I was happy. I went to a house party only knowing 2 people, it wasn't a packed party, no hot guys, I think I was the oldest, but all of this was okay because I had a fun!! We drank and danced and sang to cheesy music.......Back Street Boys!!

At one point during the party I started to talk to one of the guys, I don't remember how the conversation started but I talked about how guys in the city suck, bla bla bla, and I said I get caught in the one night stand thing. The guy shook his head and he said I need to stop doing that, I told him I know. One of my friends said the same thing to me a week a go as well, if you give up the goods too soon they are not going to come back for more. So this leads me to a "resolution" for the new year; no more giving up the goods! If this means that I might go with out sex for a year....or more (lets hope not) then so be it! I am an A+ and I deserve to have someone else think that too about me. My cousin told me, one day you want a red sweater so you go out shopping for a red sweater and you look and look and look and finlay find one but its not really what you had in mind but you buy it anyways and then like a month or two later THE RED SWEATER appears......in other words dont settle! And thats another thing i'm going to try not to do too, or to do?

1. Don't give up the goods so soon
2. Don't settle

I hope this helps me. I feel it inside of me that this year is going to be a good one, school wise I know its going to be hard and sometimes sad, and I'm okay with this. I think this is going to give me more of a backbone and who cant use a stronger one right?

I hope everyone had an amazing new year, YAY for 2010!!

December Favorites!

Merry Christmas!!

I forget to post for November, and I like to post my favorite things on the 20th of the month, maybe just doing it whenever of that month would be better....we shall see!

When I saw this girl posted on Stockholm Street Style I got all excited, I really LOVE her look and maybe some day be bold enough to get a hair cut like hers.....as for now I'm growing mine out as long as I can!!



It drives me crazy when I discover a band and you cant buy any of their music! The Misshapes would be one of them, also Leigh Lezark is HOT and what I also love about this band is that they are really really popular in the fashion world....how many bands/DJ's get to preform for a fashion show?




I am so hooked to these guys, I cant wait when they come to SF....I really hope they do!!

Regretting Arms!

Last Thursday night Arms and I met up at El Rio for drinks. I was super nervous and I had the voice my cousin in the back of my head repeating over and over again "be nice, first dates are hard!". When I arrived at the bar Arms bought me a beer and then we went outside to sit down.....I thought El Rio would be perfect because Arms could smoke away his nerves and I could keep my jacket on for security reasons! Conversation was going great, lots of things to talk about, I was making him laugh he was making me laugh we where keeping things classy.....until I think the booze started to really sink in with Arms!! I don't remember how it came up (I was a little buzzed myself!) but he asked what body parts do I like on a guy and I told him, "hands, nice thick clean hands, a wide back and a harry chest" he asked, "that's it?" I said "well no, but I'm trying to keep is classy" and he said, "well now you have to tell me" I said fine as I knew this information was going to get me into trouble!! I told him my love for saggy balls, he laughed and said that was hot, he then added that he doesn't think he has ever met a girl who loves balls....I guess I'm your first!! We met at the bar at 8 and it was now 11:30, he said he was hungry and asked if I was too, I said no but I'd go with him if he wanted to continue the evening, he said sure. We left the bar and went into a restaurant near by, at this point he was really dropping the sexy talk and I knew this guy wanted to have sex, but what I didn't know was that's all he wanted!!!!

I told him I have nothing to do the next day and he said he didn't as well, I offered to drive him home, we get to his house and he asked if I wanted to come in, I said sure. His room was clean and very organized I was VERY impressed! He lit up a joint and we smoked and talked some more, he was acting a little bit odd, but I didnt think too much of it. The chair I was sitting on was killing my ass so I moved to the bed, I guess this was an invite for him to make the moves so he did! Kissing, cloths coming off...he was a good kisser and he had some good moves, but then once he shoved my head down south everything else went down south! I forgot to mention that when I told him I liked saggy balls he said he had saggy balls.......UM NO HE DID NOT!!! I'm also going to say that this is the second middle eastern guy I have been with and the first guy's dick was so small that I got freaked out, Arms was packin just a little bit more but still a disappointment!! I really thought this guy was hung....DAMMIT!! He was also into some things sexually that I was not into, like cumming on a girls face or in her mouth, look cum tastes nasty I don't care what you think it is gross and messy and I don't like it!! BUT I let him do it once....I didn't know that he was going to do it!! The sex was whatever, after we were done he sat in his bean bag and I sat up on the bed, he asked if I wanted to smoke some more and I said, "I don't think its a good idea if I'll be driving home tonight, unless you want me to stay" he said "Yeah, I think its better if I didn't spend the night I'm really tired and it might be awkward the next morning" NEVER HAVE I EVER BEEN ASKED TO LEAVE AFTER SEX, NEVER!!!! I got up put my cloths on he walked me to the car, gave me a hug and then said "call me if you want to hang out again, I'll leave it up to you" I smiled and said okay, I got into that car and deleted him from my phone and then cried on the drive home!!

What did I learn from this? That I'm kind of a sad person? I will never sleep with a middle eastern guy EVER again! I need to really figure out what the hell do I want because I think I'm VERY confused!! One part of me wants a boyfriend and then the other just wants to fuck.........one or the other T!!!

That morning I work up and I could feel the all of my eye shadow and mascara crusty around my eyes, my mouth tasted like a condom and my heart felt like it was in my stomach, I wanted to die!! And I still kind of feel that way, not so much about what happened last Thursday but this was just like the icing on the cake for me from other things going on in my life and I'm really sad!

I Blame Coco!

Determined for Arms!

I don't know if I have talked about how I'm kind of good at stalking people on the internet.....well I am!! All I need is a name, not even the full name and more than likely I will find you...creepy? I had been looking for Arms every now and than but nothing came up so I figured he was one of the few people who haven't jumped on the social networking sites like the rest of the world; until one cold rainy night I told myself "T, you dig deep like you never have before"! And...I found him!!!

What brought this on was besides the fact that he's hot, it was the eye games, I knew he was interested in me and that kind of attention doesn't happen very often for me....unless I'm unaware of it! So I find that he has a music profile and a regular one, I got VERY excited about this and emailed my friend and cousin the link, both gave me thumbs up; and so did my gay boy!! I wanted to send him a message being that class was over and if all along he was just looking at me because I was odd looking nothing bad would come out of this, I just wouldn't get a reply back or a "fuck off physco!". One of my guy friends I asked to be my Cyrano with the emails being that what I was going to send him was too long and not aloof enough....I admit I dont know how to play it cool, I just be me, sometimes that works and sometimes it doesnt....and this aloof thing did!! With in a few hours he messaged me back saying...

"hey,

How do you pronounce your name?!?!

Yes the math class is in fact really lame.....I've been meaning to ask you your name, now i know how to spell it...

I like your swagger

anyways...peace for now "

No your vision is not messed up you do indeed see "swagger", never have I ever had a guy say that to me, nor did I know that that word was still used!! A few people gave me crap about how I was making a big deal out of nothing and I should give this guy a chance, and I am...he's hot and I need to get laid!! I message him back and then he sends one back to me and at the end if it he says, "maybe we should hang out sometime..." JACKPOT!! I got very excited and I replied back saying yes that would be cool and gave him my number, later that evening he sent a text letting me know this was his number (this happened last night). I'm crossing my fingers and he gets the balls to call me and we do really go out, I haven t been on a date in while as well, that would be nice too!!

Some not great things have happened this year for me and maybe just maybe Santa might notice and throw me a bone(r) my way!!

I'll keep you posted!

Would a Vampire know if I was on my period? Yes I'm going there!!

A friend of mine posted a video on FB and it totally got me excited because this has been a question of mine for a long time but I find it VERY VERY odd of me of why out of all the things I talk about WHY HAVE I NEVER BROUGHT THIS UP??? I mean I talk about with my friends how much I LOVE saggy balls or getting slapped on the ass or I talk about when I get a Brazilian wax, but not this??? Well now I am everybody!!!

Back in the day I was a big fan of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and I remember one day the thought came to mind, but that was it I just left it as is. But being now with all this vampire craze, the question is now more on my mind, would a vampire know if I was on my period? Also, if vampires where real and I came in contact with one and he wanted my blood, could I offer him to give me oral sex while I'm on my period, that way he's getting what he wants and I'd get some pleasure out of it as well! I also want to know can a female vampire get her period, I know vampires are dead in away but your body is still working...so could it be possible? AND WHY HAS THIS NEVER BEEN TALKED ABOUT????? Well....I can see that this isn't the most glamorous topics of all things to talk about BUT COME ON!!!

I'm posting the video that was shared by a friend and the other one is a little long and kind of boring but is somewhat informative!

Crave right now!

Enjoy!