Would a Vampire know if I was on my period? Yes I'm going there!!

A friend of mine posted a video on FB and it totally got me excited because this has been a question of mine for a long time but I find it VERY VERY odd of me of why out of all the things I talk about WHY HAVE I NEVER BROUGHT THIS UP??? I mean I talk about with my friends how much I LOVE saggy balls or getting slapped on the ass or I talk about when I get a Brazilian wax, but not this??? Well now I am everybody!!!

Back in the day I was a big fan of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and I remember one day the thought came to mind, but that was it I just left it as is. But being now with all this vampire craze, the question is now more on my mind, would a vampire know if I was on my period? Also, if vampires where real and I came in contact with one and he wanted my blood, could I offer him to give me oral sex while I'm on my period, that way he's getting what he wants and I'd get some pleasure out of it as well! I also want to know can a female vampire get her period, I know vampires are dead in away but your body is still working...so could it be possible? AND WHY HAS THIS NEVER BEEN TALKED ABOUT????? Well....I can see that this isn't the most glamorous topics of all things to talk about BUT COME ON!!!

I'm posting the video that was shared by a friend and the other one is a little long and kind of boring but is somewhat informative!

Crave right now!

Enjoy!

Don't know how long I can go....

I feel like there is this hour glass floating on top of my head, and its really making me upset. I don't know if I can give school another semester, I don't know if I can take care of one more kid and I don't know how much I can take of feeling left behind. I've been thinking about going back to therapy but every time I think about it I feel its not going to help this time because my therapist isn't going to make me feel better about math or being single or feeling left out in life; that's only something I feel I'm going to have to do on my own. She would only be a new ear for me to vent to, and it just doesn't seem worth it.

Today I had to bring my baby cousin to pre-school and the location is not the greatest to get to when you don't have a car, but its manageable, just a long fucking walk! I love her so much, but apart of me did not want to do this today, the bus was packed, I had 2 big bags, one mine (I was going to go to class right after) and then the dipper bag; I also had the stroller and the kid. I drop the kid off, I felt sad that she cried when I left, but it was nice at the same time to know I would be missed. I had to take a differnt route to class, because of the location of the pre-school was, when I got on the street car I was wearing my headphones and daydreaming as usual, at some point I notice all the people sitting in front of me where looking kind of in my direction, I turn my head and see an old man laying on the floor between the door and the step! As I'm about to get up, some people rush over to help him, his hand is bleeding and the street car will not be moving for a while because the Muni driver says he's going to call for the ambulance. The ambulance comes, the EMT guys were taking their time I felt a little too much, and at this point I was wondering should I get off and just walk the rest to class....my toe still kind of hurts and the blocks around the neighborhood of school are SO LONG!!! So a Muni cop gets on and asks people what happened, I seem to be the only one who knew the most detail, and he asks for my name and I tell him I didn't see the whole thing so you can have my name! We all have to get off and go to another street car, I made it just in time for class.

I sit down and I start to get all terry eyed, my math teacher comes over to see how I'm doing with the homework and he see's I'm kind of crying I tell him "today is not a good day" he says that's okay and leaves me alone. I notice that Arms is in the testing room, I guess he still has not passed the last test yet you need to take to pass the class....WHY!!! The game, I am SO OVER the eye game, like just pass this test so I don't have to have sexy thoughts running in my head when I'm on the bus going home......or in class!! I really really really wish I could find out what he's thinking when he looks at me, does he think I'm odd looking or hot? Does he want to do crazy kinky things to me or does he think who would touch me? I wish there was a right moment to talk with him but there isn't, I really don't get life sometimes, I really really really don't!

I'm crossing fingers and toes for 010 to be better, because 09 has been no good!

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Why does this shock me??

Yeah....

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Honstly Whining

I was thinking yesterday as I was whining to myself of how the fuck did I get a cold; that maybe I should change the tittle of this blog to "The girl who whines", being that most of my blogs are about how my life is so unfair. I know its not but for me personally it is. I saw the movie Precious on Sunday with some friends and it's a really sad movie, I knew it was going to be sad but I thought there was going to be a happy ending, not really. The movie is based on a novel, I don't know if the story is true, but for sure this lifestyle is true! Precious was never loved, her Mother and Father sexually,mentally and physically abused her, her father got her pregnant twice and she had both children all under the age of 17; she later finds out that she also got HIV from her father as well. There was a moment in the movie that she's crying to her teacher about how she's never had anyone love her, she's never had a boyfriend, nothing good has ever happened in her in life other than her children. I cried because this girl never stood in a chance in life, and its really scary and sad to think that their are people like this in real life, who just will never stand a chance. Sometimes I feel this way, as all of my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends, husbands and wife's and I have no one, and most of my weekends are spent at home in front of the T.V. with an Amy's pizza and a glass of wine with my Mother and I deciding witch house the couple should choose on House Hunters, I feel so pathetic. There was a time I had no friends, and now I have some, but in way I feel I don't, my social life has changed a lot over the last year, but I tell myself I have people who love me very much, and I know they do, but I want a different kind of love that they cant give me, but deep down inside I don't feel I should have it.

Lately I've been really depressed (I have talked about this) and I knew why, but I felt I wasn't getting to the root of why, until today. I miss my brother not being home, not that he ever was home a lot, its really hard for me to expect that he's living a life that I think about all the time, but at the same time am really scared about. As much as I want to get a real job and move out and have a life my family knows nothing about I wonder can I do it? I also get scared thinking if this does happen, will I finally be happy? I don't know if I've ever been 100% happy, I also think about will I finally be worthy enough to be with someone, because I don't feel I am now.

The worst person in my life is myself.

Lanvin, Givenchy and Gucci, BRAVO!!

I dream of wearing Lanvin, and this SS collection is amazing!


Givenchy, nice job!


Gucci used ALL of my favorite colors, and patterns, I love psychedelic patterns on dresses! Oh and the shoes and jewelery....DIE!!!

The Evidence (its ugly)

This what happens when you have no fat on your foot (this is what my aunt told me) and a 1lb 4oz full starch can for ironing falls on your 4th toe!!

I've got the hot's for a barbaric!

He's in my math class, and he has the most barbaric name I have ever herd, I told my brother about him and he threw out every joke in the book about this guys name......but he has the most sexist arms I have ever seen; he's just this man's, man all man!!! He's going to go by Arms. Now maybe at this very moment I want him more than the other 2 months of school I have been having class with him because my hormones are going crazy because the last time I got shagged was by Mr. Romanian and he was not all that in the sak!! I'm looking for a man who knows how to work it, and I think Arms might be my ticket to a good time.......but then again I don't really want ANOTHER fuck buddy.......but I don't really see Arms and I hitting it off outside of the bedroom only because he smokes like a pack a day I bet and I have a feeling his friends and my friends wouldn't get along very well, his fashion is not the greatest but it is WAY better than Mr. Romanian's. We have made eye contact a few times, but I cant look at him for very long because I turn all red and my heart pounds like a mile a second.......I think he might be interested only because one day when we were both in the testing room and our teacher called roll and he called my name Arms turned his head all over the room looking for me.....is that good? I asked my brother what did he think if I went up to him and asked him if his name means anything, he said that was kind of dumb........now I'm rethinking this.....maybe ask him something about the class? Ahhhhhhhhhh,I want some dude interaction or I might hump something that doesn't need to be humped!!