My Monthly Man

During summer I was seeing a boy (I'm calling him a boy because he was younger then me, but not too young, by 3 years) who was very sweet but a little needy for me and also had a little bit of a problem in the bed room. For 3 months that we went out we only had sex twice! My kind heart couldn't take it anymore so in the middle of August i said,"Good bye" and decided to set a personal goal for myself; I was going to try to see if I could get laid once a month! My male friends said this would be very easy to do, I wasn't so sure but now that its December and looking back at the 3 months, um well.........yea it has been easy! No technique was involved, I was myself the whole time. But now I'm having a change of thought, as all of this has been fun I'm not sure if my self worth or my vagina is letting me know,"lets take a break for a while". Taking a break, I'm fine with, but I don't want my break to go on for to long, I have gone for a year with no sex once and I don't ever want to do that EVER again, maybe just this month? I do have a lot of things going on this month, I'm taking a trip right after the new year and I need to start getting ready for that, plus the trip is a cruise and from what I have herd its very easy to get laid on a cruise ship! I think also all the guys that I slept with none of them charmed me like Messenger Boy and being that we haven't spoke sense Thanksgiving could also be apart of this feeling I have. I don't know if I would call it being jaded or burnt out, I didn't "love" him, but he was a cool guy to hang out with and if we still hung out then he would be my Mr. December man, when really he should only be my Mr. November man!

I think I'm going to keep this idea, no sex this month, just work, work, work and focus on my trip and have fun with friends and family and then get back to my monthly lay in January!