Velvet Revolution and Math Revolution

I received an email yesterday letting me know that the committee who will be reviewing my request for a math waiver will be meeting next Wed, Nov 17th. When I told my parents and My Guy he kind of laughed because Nov 17th is the a big day in Slovakia being that its part of the Velvet Revolution. So please keep your fingers and toes crossed on Nov 17th, because if this doesn't happen for me, I'm not sure what my next move will be for me school wise!

This is for sure what I want!

I also have a huge crush on Charlotte Dellal and her sister Alice Dellal! I loved when I read that Charlotte wore leopard print shoes for her wedding, LOVE THIS IDEA!!! Anyways, I also like to share my latest girl crushes to you all :)





(I AM NOT GETTING MARRIED ANYTIME SOON!! But a girl can dream!)

Hot off my ears!

Your here, and more to come, I can't wait!!

Brand new!!

Play over and over again!

This is the original song:

His Friends

As much as I like My Guy's friends at the same time they bug me just a little bit, but not enough for me to never want to see them. I think what bugs me is that if it were up to them they would like to see him almost every weekend and to me thats a bit much! My Guy and I have talked about that him and I have very different relationships with our friends, and its true, his friends are more like family members to each other, they are really there for each other 1000%! I like the friends that I have in my life and I know they would help me out if I asked, but for sure the relationship is much different from My Guy's friends. I mean do I want to talk with my friends on the phone everyday and see them every weekend? I did when I was in high school and a little bit when I graduated from high school, its not like I wouldn't like to talk with them everyday on the phone or see them every weekend but I really like my alone time and my family time.

I also think friendships in San Francisco are odd, I have meet some people who have a bunch of close friends fallowed with a few groups they hang out with, and then I have meet some people who just have a few friends and thats it. When I got into my 20's I started out with no friends, then I made some "friends" then they left then I met my ex then he dumped me and then I was left with no friends again for a while and then over time I made some friends and only really 3 of them have really stuck around! My Guy's friends he has known for his whole life, most of them, and I wish I had that, I really do. I have always kind of considered myself of a loner, and over time I have been okay with that, but sometimes I wish I had what My Guy has, it must be a really cool feeling. But as I always say, "something is better then nothing" and I would for sure rather have 3 awesome people in my life then no one at all :)

The Fab Pandemonia!

To learn more about "her" go here Pandemonia Panacea, "she" is also on FB!

Top of my head....

- Lately I have been thinking about wanting to start a daily or almost daily fashion blog, but I don't really feel what I wear is creative enough, I mean have you seen the competition out there?

- I feel I'm changing, like I'm morphing into this new "women" part of me feels a little disconnected from myself, like I'm standing back and watching me twist and turn inside of a cocoon and waiting for me to blossom out..........well if this is really what is happening, then when I come out I better be wearing a hot outfit!

- The fog horns have been more active lately then usual, at least I feel. I just love the sound of them, I have been trying to find an app for fog horns, or fog horns by the sea, something like that but no luck so far. I don't think I would be very happy if I lived in a place like Arizona, no sea, I need to know the beach is not far away from me, its sad that San Francisco has shitty beaches, but we do have beautiful public parks. Anyways, I will try to make a promise to myself that I will try to forever stay by the sea so I can listen to the fog horns!

- This teacher of mine that I had in HS I found her on the next working site, I friended her and I have also sent her a message, but no response and I know its on purpose. I would like to know why is she friends with all the crazy/fucked up kids from my 2002 class but wants to have nothing to do with me? It makes me wonder was I a bitch back in HS? Am I a bitch now? Stuff like this really makes me wonder!

- I got hit by a car today, I'M FINE!!! But the guy didn't even say he was sorry nor did he bother to get out of this car, he just rolled down his window and looked at me and then drove off. One of my biggest fears is something happening to me when I'm alone, knowing that I will have to rely on strangers scares me!

- Sometimes I think about going back to therapy. I feel fine, okay in the noodle, but I have these feelings sometimes of uncertainty and discouragement, I don't know. I get worried about myself that I'm never going to be okay unless someone is in my life holding my hand in some way, and I don't really like that and I'm also not sure if that's okay or this is how it must be. I am incapable of doing some things in life on my own, and that's fine, but the percent I would like to know, like how much is the capable part? I should know this! Maybe I do. I don't know.

- I have been watching "Say Yes to the Dress" latley, I'm not getting married, don't know if I want to ever, I go back and forth about this. But I do know a few things: I do not want a ball gown, I do not want my neighbor invited, I want a saxophone player, and no bridesmaids- Its going to be all about me! I don't want to get married in a church, my fiance will not be wearing a bow-tie!

- I miss my brother (he's alive).

Dream house!

There are more pictures here. I got My Guy hooked to "dreaming" as I like to call it, and now every now and then we like to look at houses that are for sale on-line. Someday I'll get the guts to go to open house's!