WTF dude!

As I'm watching Rock Of Love on Tour my cell goes off, I look to see who's calling me and it was just a number, no name, but I had this feeling it was someone calling me who knows me, not a wrong number, because normally I don't pick up on just random numbers that call my cell. Anyways, it was someone I know, someone who I thought would NEVER call me EVER again............Messenger Boy!!!!!!!!!!I mean really??? He must have been stoned off his ass the last time I talked with him on the phone because, how do you forget that you hung up on someone, or tell them "yeah I think I'm not the guy for you", how do you forget that??? He asks me how I'm doing, then he tells me he bought a boat over by Pier 39 (my brother told me this the day before, he also told me that he was at a party with him and MB was trying to get any girl he could get them to come back to his boat with him, creepy!)stupid me I act interested and ask if it rocks back and forth at night.....I don't know what I was thinking, I'll admit I was a little nervous that he called, it really threw me off! So then he asks if we can hang out and I said "we had this conversation about hanging out, I'm not sure that your always honest with me and that's a big deal to me, I'm a one person one person, person, and I feel that's just not your thing, you even said the last time I talked with you that your not the guy for me and hung up on me" he kind of didn't know what to say so he stammered and said "I'm not like that, but its fine if you want to think that, I'm not going to try to change your mind" then he said to take care and i said you too and that was it, but the way we said good bye felt like this dude is going to call again. I really wanted to text him after and say "please delete me from you phone, I don't want you calling me" but I just couldn't do it, although I was really proud of myself the way I handled him on the phone. But I have to say, a very pathetic side of me was hoping when he called to say something like "I messed up big time, your an awesome girl and I want to make this a serious thing if your interested". Whats wrong with me for thinking this??? This guy is sooooooooooooo icky and such a low person that he called for sex, because from what I guess there are no other fuck buddies in his life and if I'm it, he needs to check himself!!! Even if he did say that he wanted to have something serious with me I wouldn't have gone along with it, the guy slept with a hooker for crying out loud!!!

My last session with my head doctor last week was about guys and she came to the conclusion that I don't take men seriously............hell no i don't!!! Why should I??? As much as my father drives me crazy I love the man and he is a good male figure in my life, and I would never end up being with a guy who is lower than my father. Meaning a guy who doesn't take life seriously, a guy who doesn't have morals, a guy who doesn't have goals, who isn't good with money, these are all the things my father IS NOT and why would I sink for anything lower than that in a guy??? I wont, I am really awesome, funny, caring, "smart", I also bake one hell of a sugar cookie!!! I'm not budging for guys, its their turn now........impress me!!!