No Spark

I feel after Messenger Boy I have had no desire to go looking for my next dude, just to make things sure I even went to my fave porn site (i check it out maybe once every 3 months,I'm not a porn attic!) and as I was watching one of the videos........nothing, I got no joy out it, if anything I was turned off!! I have found more enjoyment with myself and I'm really okay with that ;) I'm not shutting myself off from guys, I'm taking things one step at a time and if some guy comes around and is able to spark me up then "have at it dude". But for now I like this me time, it's keeping my dramatic mind out of trouble!!